HAPPY FRIDAY!!

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!!

Well I was too lazy to do SPF, so forgive me. I went to the doctor yesterday, and I walked away a bit more hopeful. My MRI came back normal, suprise suprise right? SO, I went in there all hell bent for answers and for a solution to my pain. I can't deal with it anymore. Physically, emotionally, and financially I'm DONE. I was pissed that last time I walked out of there clueless as to what was going on, where to go next, if they even agreed that there was a problem to be fixed, etc. All I knew was I had to have an MRI. After it came back normal I was beside myself with frustration and depression. I felt hopeless and helpless.

So I went in there ready to raise hell, but the longer I sat in the room waiting the more I got depressed. The doctor came in, sat down, and looked as bummed about the whole thing as I felt. Good sign, maybe...

Long story short, he hasn't ruled out a hernia or endomitriosis. He said that unless they were massive then the MRI wouldn't pick up either problem. OK. So, now I have to go see a hernia sergon (man is that spelled wrong) on Tuesday morning and then I have to have a laporoscpy, most likley, a week from today. No later than the following Friday.

He said he didn't expect to walk away finding nothing, he said he's known there was something going on in there for years, he said he knew I wasn't crazy, he said we weren't going to wait because I've been in pain for long enough, he said NO MORE WAITING OR PLAYING AROUND. I broke down and cried. Finally, the possibility of an end to all this mess. I walked away with hope. I walked away happy. YYEEESSS!!!

He gave me another pain killer to try. It seemed to work OK last night. I feel better today, and I brought them with today just incase. He said to stay on the BC pills back to back for now. He said that I'm spotting because the rest of those damn shots are out of my body and my body is trying to get back on schedule but the pills are telling it otherwise. (holy run on sentance) BLEEDING IS NOT MY FRIEND RIGHT NOW. Ok, I was never buddy buddy with it anyways. (haha)

I walked away with answers, I walked away with someone demanding an end to all this besides me, I walked away with a solution and not just another order for more tests and a big question mark afterwards. I walked away with the hope of closure.

Now I just need to deal with my HUGE fear of being put to sleep...oh well it'll be worth it this time.

Hugs and Kisses

Another 50.....

Stolen from SuperChick....

1. How tall are you barefoot? 5'5 1/2

2. Have you ever skinny dipped? Yup!

3. Do you own a gun? Nope, never even shot one

4. Who's your best friend? Mandy

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents"? Of course

6. What do hot dogs make you think of? Mac n Cheese

7. What's your favorite Christmas song? Christmas is coming by the Muppets

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Coffee

9. Can you do push ups? Yeah

10. Do you consider Pluto a planet? My 5th grade sience report says it is

11. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? My heart pendant

12. Do you like painkillers? Yup, got a new one from the doctor this morning

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex? This black dress...works!

14. Do you own a knife? only kitcken ones

15. Do you have A.D.D.? Nope

16. Middle Name? Bridget

17. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment: I hate the rain, Man do I have cramps, is it 5:50 yet?

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought: Starbucks, gas, a new phone

19. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink: Pepsi, coffee, Kool-aid

20. What time did you wake up today? 7

21. ? I copied these questions from another page and 21 is missing.

22. Current worry? My surgery next week

23. Current hate? The a**hole I have living with me (man, that's not nice)

24. Favorite places to be? Home in bed

25. Least favorite place to be? Dentist

26. Where would you like to go? Home

27. Do you own slippers? No, but I really want some!.....Ugg ones

28. What shirt are you wearing? Black, long sleeved BeBe shirt

29. Do you burn or tan? Burn.

30. Favorite color(s)? Black & dark purple

31. Would you be a pirate? No ships for me, can't swim!!!!!!!!!!!

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink? Last weekend

33. What is the last song you listened to? Breathe by Faith Hill

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child? Whatever came out of the closet in Polterguiest

35. What's in your pockets right now? No pockets

36. Last thing that made you laugh? the a**hole doing his groove dance last night

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child? Strawberry Shortcake - All the way!!!!!!!!

38. Worst injury you've ever had? Broken Hand

40. How many TVs do you have in your house? Four

41. Who is your loudest friend? Teri

42. Who is your most silent friend? None, their all pretty crazy

43. Does someone have a crush on you? Yes, but I'll never tell who

44. Do you wish on shooting stars? Yup

45. What is your favorite book? Not sure....

46. What is your favorite candy? Mounds bars...ploished off a bag last weekend

47. What song do/did you want played at your wedding? "At Last"...I totally agree w this one SC

48. What song do you want played at your funeral? Anything by Def Leppard

49. What were you doing 12 AM last night? Sleeping

50. What was the First thing you thought of when you woke up? Damn!!

That was fun....thanks SC.

I'll try to post about my Dr's appt. later

Hugs and kisses

Funny little diddy..

SuperChick had a fun little diddy on her blog that I thought I'd copycat. There are 10 questions that are always asked to celebreties on "Inside the Actors Studio" and so we're playing celebrety....

1) What's your favorite word: Chocolate

2)What's your least favorite word: Vagina

3)What turns you on creatively, spiritually, or emotionally: My daughter..she just makes me want to be better

4)What turns you off? Ignorance, Hypocrites

5) What's your favorite curse word? SOB & MF'r (it's a tie)

6) What sound or noise do you love? The sounds of Christmas

7) What sound or noise do you hate? My mother eating cereal (slurp, slurp)

8) What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? Nursing

9)What profession would you not like to do? anything having to do w seafood

10) If heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates. "You never let me down"

Fun, thanks SC!!

Ps...my new phone came and it's really pretty (teehee)

"I had the right to remain silent...but I didn't have the ability"

I am SO excited! This weekend we are going with our neighbors to see Ron White. I'm not sure if you're all familier with 'Tater' but he's a part of the Blue Comedy Tour (Jeff Foxsworthy) He's my FAVORIATE!! I am going to pee myself I just know it. It's our neighbors birthday and he just LOVES 'Tater' too, so his lovley wife got him tickets and invited us along. It was suppose to be a suprise until the dumbass opened the tickets when they came in the mail. Snoopy butt. Oh well.

Man, I haven't had plans for the weekend that I've been this excitied about for months now. Damn, am I boring or what?! I think it'll do me some good to get some laughter therapy. I have both his DVD's and even though I know all his jokes they never seem to get old. Maybe it's the way he delivers them or something, but this guy is the funniest I've EVER seen.

Not much else yet today. Waiting for them to deliver my new phone. that's about it kiddies. Hope all is well with everyone in bloggerland.

COME ON WEEKEND!!!

I'm such a dipsh*t

Short post today.....busy day @ work.

You'll never guess what I did this morning??? I DROPPED MY CELL PHONE IN THE TOILET!!!!!

I know, I know, calm down, here whipe the tears of laughter from your eyes, ok it wasn't THAT funny.....ok maybe it was. What a dipsh*t I am. I didn't know if I should've laughed or cried. I chose to laugh. Needless to say my Razor has dulled and another one is on the way tomorrow. My poor phone. At least I saved it from going down the drain since I was mid-flush.

I know....eeeeewwwwww, but trust me I scrubbed like 10 times afterwards. Now I'm just thinking about all the saved pictures I had on there that are now lost. At least I think they're lost...I think they can only transfer my contact list right? OOOHHH and I had some damn cute ones of the puppies and my little one on there. Damnit!!!!!!

Oh well. Pretty uneventful weekend. Was laid up in bed 'cause I started bleeding AGAIN!! Good God will this drama never end. Have a follow-up appt. on Thursday morning to discuss where to go from here, so I guess all will be discussed then.

Hoe-hum.....I guess that's all for now.

P.s. For all of you who were wondering and/or asked...Disneyland has been closed since the discovery of the new information...well a bit before actually. Even when I THINK about it all I feel is YUCK!!!!!! and that's too bad 'cause wwhhhoooo was it good. Oh well, there's always one better out there. Damn I better start looking.

Hugs and kisses

SFP, etc

Ok, so I tried to post something earlier and blogger failed me. Then, I tried to upload my pictures so I could play SFP and it failed me again. Damn thing. What's a chick to do? I know, I'll ramble on about the current battle of the comments....

Damn, I really don't feel like doing that either. I wrote a long ass post about it this morning and when I went to publish it I got kicked out, and now it's nowhere to be found. Too bad it was pretty good too.

I guess all I can say about the issue is this:

Thanks to all my 'peeps' for coming to my defense. I heart you all. Reguardless of if I sound 'winey' or not you've been there for me and I appreciate it. More than you'll all ever know.

I know airing my feelings for 'everyone' to see comes with the risk of negative feedback, and I know that. Whatever. No biggie. I can take it. I posted about it 'cause I got a kick out of it a bit more than because it bothered me. Yet, at the same time, I wanted to respond. Knowone knows all of what's going on better than me. Although it sounds like most of you seem to relate better than others. *ahem*

Mr. 'Man' I get your point...we get your point. Although I can't say that we agree being that we're women and tend to be a little more emotional than all this cut and dry business. Reguardless, we get it.

Sometimes I wish I could nip things in the bud a lot quicker than I do, but then again sometimes it's not always best to take your marbles and go home just because your skirt got ruffeled and you're upset. Sometimes you need to know WHY. Why the behavior is there, what caused the problem, what might be lacking, blah blah. Let's just chalk it up to me need to know.

I know I can stand on this high horse, I borrowed, and say that he has it all with confidence. Not just because I'm giving the typical, defensive, female, winey response. I am the homemaker, the dirty whore in the bedroom (or whatever room), the shoulder to cry on, the friend to pal around with, the drinking buddy, the arm candy, the PS2 opponent, whatever and ALL of the female half to this relationship. I've spiced things up (standing on the stairs with his fav tie & a thong on amongst other things)when he comes home. I get it. Women get bored too. Just sometimes shit like this doesn't make sence given all that.

Bottom line, sometimes everything someone has just isn't enough. Sometimes love isn't enough. Sometimes it's just NOT YOU. Should I have 'wasted' the energy looking for answers....maybe not. Maybe since the gut feeling was there maybe that should've been enough. But this time it wasn't. So what. It's not like I put on full comando gear and went out into the field hunting him down either. He's not worth that much energy. The last 2 years have drained enough out of me. My fault, but still.

Reguardless, Mr. 'Man' thanks for stopping by. Thanks for recanting your pathetic comment to all my friends. Thanks for your opinion. This one though, you can keep.

Hugs and kisses. TGIF!!

I'm an official blogger now

Well kiddies it official. I am a full blown blogger now; I've gotten my first shitty comment. Being that everyone is entitled to their opinion, and I'm sure this won't be my only a**hole of a comment, but being that it's the first let's share and respond shall we.....

If you are already spying on him like that, your relationship is already fucked up.

I can't believe someone would go through all this trouble to find out if the partner is cheating.

And all these other women here saying things like:" I would follow him". You are all pathetic !

Listen carefully, you only get cheated on if you dont give the other person what he/she wants. Think about that for a second.

Ok I will.......ok I'm done

I agree that if you feel things are wrong somehow that the relationship is most likley "f'd up" However that's not always the case, but I see your point.

Next, I really don't think I was going thru SO much trouble to find ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS I HAD about the relationship. What's the difference between having a long, drawn out conversation about an issue and quietly seeing if something is how it appears? Anyone? Anyone? I don't see a difference, especially since if it wasn't what I thought it was, than it would me MY issue to deal with (as I'm sure YOU have your own issues)and it would've saved me the termoil and headache of approaching him. Right? That's what I thought.

Next, calling nice, kindhearted people who have come here because they care about me and offer advice (remember everyone is entitled to their own opinion) pathetic is...well....PATHETIC ON YOUR PART. GROW UP!

And finally, although I agree that SOME people cheat because the relationship is lacking something I can't say that for ALL cases of cheating. And if you were adult enough you would have already known that. I can say, with all my heart, that he has it SO F'N GOOD that he's a FOOL to look elsewhere. The only thing lacking in this relationship is A DECENT MAN! People can have the WORLD at home and still sniff around because that's just their nature. Not because the other person isn't giving them what they need!.....GEEK.

Wow that was kinda fun!!

I'm still here....

Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. Everything blew up yesterday.

I was planning on asking him about everything over the weekend...I chickened out. I seem to do that a lot lately. Well then I had planned to ask him about it last night figuring that since he's off today he can get his crap out when I'm not there. That didn't happen either.

Long story short, we were talking yesterday morning (I was at work), like normal, I was telling him that the doctors office had just called and my MRI came back 'normal' (suprise, suprise) so now the doctor wants me to come back in next week to talk about where to go from here. Well he couldn't understand why we couldn't discuss the options over the phone, and then ACCUSED ME OF BEING UP TO SOMETHING!!! What??? Where the F did that come from?? My response was "I'M doing something?!" Well right after that he hung up on me.

Back and forth, back and forth. I don't know what your talking about, I swear I don't know who that is...Get your phone, it's listed under this name....dead silence...I don't know who this is, there's a lot of numbers in here of people I don't talk to anymore, Jamie (he NEVER uses my name; always calls me babe) I swear it's not what you think it is. Anger, panic, anger again, panic. Hang up on me, call back, hang up on me again, call back. This was how my day started off and continued ALL DAMN DAY.

Finally, he settles on a story (after he gets to work) that it's the cousin of this guy who works with him, who doesn't speak english, that him and his buddies call that number for an...hem..herbal refreshment. BS!!! Oh and he throws in there that I can talk to his buddy if I want to and he'll back him up all the way. Yeah, I bet he will. Lies, all lies! Well while all this was going on my BOSS sits down next to me and tells me that if I'm on a personal phone call I've got 3 seconds to hang up or I'm out of a job. THANKS!!! Not like I was being loud, actually I was whispering, but there is the example of ANOTHER dick I allow in my life.

I left here with such a headache yesterday that I felt sick! I am so disappointed in myself that I've dropped the ball YET AGAIN because I'm intimidated by him. I'm afraid. I know what's goin on, I know he's full of it, I NOW KNOW FOR SURE. So, what's my problem? Why did I not go home yesterday and DEMAND that he leave?! Why was I only a beeooch and not demand he get out, he's full of it, goodbye be gone? How have I let it get this far? Why can't I stand up for myself? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???

I know all this in UNACCEPTABLE, WRONG, UNFORGIVEABLE but why am I so afraid of dealing with it? Fully. Why do I cower like a 2 year old. My co-worker says I have battered-womans syndrome where I just can't seem to get out from under his thumb. OK??

Sorry, guys, sadly I admit I'm just at a loss with life right now. I feel like too much is being thrown at me that I can't find the spot to take the first step with anything. Between home, my job, my health I just feel like it's all too much for me to handle. And I know God never gives you more than you can handle, and I've already exceeded my prayer limit telling him that I need strength b/c I can't handle all of this. Then keeping my 'game face' on for my little one on top of it....I'm sinking.

Sorry for the drama ladies, please try not to call me stupid toomuch. I already know.

And the hits keep coming!

Ok, so I played detective yesterday and today and guess what? I'm in the same boat as my friend!! I had a feeling deep in my heart for sometime now, but just didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to believe it was true. Well I have it in frount of me, and now I'm scared.

I had been checking his phone off and on for awhile, and found some contact names for girls. Ok. I went back and then started monitoring the (cell) phone bill and never saw any of these girls numbers on it. Ok, whatever. I had noticed in the past that he had between 150-200+ text messages a month. WTF?? He doesn't text me. So, at the time I called our carrier and was told the only way to get the info on who all the text msg were to or from was to check the phone itself. Well, everytime I did that the message boxes were empty, of course!

Now, our carrier has a way to look online and see what number is sending messages to the phone and what number that phone is sending messages to. So, I have a list of the last three months of text messages and there was this one number that was on there, like 6-10 times EACH DAY and there was a time pattern to some of the messages too. So, being the little snoop I am I blocked out my number and called it. IT WAS A GIRL's VOICEMAIL.

Now, I know what you're going to say...maybe..so what if he's talking to a girl, maybe they're just friends. Ok, but if the shoe was on the other foot friends of the opposite sex are a HUGE no, no to him. He gets jealous if our mutual friends are "to nice" to me. Besides, I then checked the actual 'phone' bill and her number doesn't show up ONCE!!! I then did one of those revurse number/address lookup things and found out that this hag lives 5 MINUTES FROM HIS WORK!!! Gee, do you think that explains the 'late night deals' at work????!!!! Explaines why he comes home from those 'late night deals' and can't look me in the eyes when he walks in the door??

I jotted down another number that was listed under the name of the dealership nextdoor to his, came to work, blocked out the number, and it's some chicks HOUSE!! NOT THE DAMN DEALERSHIP!!!!!!!!!

I am so lost, hurt, angry, embarresd. I feel like a fool. I can't say I've never been cheated on before, but I just haven't caught anyone before. Where do I go from here? How do I confrount him? Do I hand him the lists and ask him if there's something he'd like to tell me...and then toss his ass out the door??? Thank GOD my little one is with her dad this weekend, so she won't be around in case something goes down, but still.

I need some advise please ladies. I'm so afraid that he'll talk his way out of it and/or minipulate some bs story or something that makes my position fall apart. What should I do? Should I call this girl and ask her what's going on with the two of them? I'm lost, please help!!

If I ever see you, you'd better move out of the way!!

I know SuperChick and I are on a mission to make nice in bloggerland, but I am so beside myself right now I need to vent.

I found out this morning that one of my best girlfriends husband has been cheating. CHEATING!!!!! She found an email from this b**ch in his inbox. I am beside myself. Now, my girlfriend has already been through a HELLISH divorce from the first prick she married, and we all thought her current (now) prick was just what God wanted for her. All of us secretly wished we could find our own M. He was awesome. WAS is now the key word here.

They've been married for a little over a year, and when I say a little I mean like a week over 1 year. They've been having problems, but none of us EVER expected he would do this. It just never seemed like his style; he always seemed to have more class than that. WELL I GUESS WE WERE ALL WRONG!! And can you believe that he doesn't believe that you have to work at a marriage??!! He claims the feelings are there or they're not; you shouldn't have to work at it. WHAT???!!! When I got married that's one of the first things my mom told me. Marriage is a constant work in progress. HELLO?? DUMBASS!!!

I am SO crushed for her; when she told me I started crying. I offered to go run him over with my SUV, but she turned me down....damn. I guess you just never really know someone do you? And what a scarry thought that is! I always told her that if he ever cheated that you'd have to scrape me off the pavement 'cause that's how floored I'd be. Well get out the scraper.

How bad is it that now I'm all freaked and the little wonders I've had about the faithfulness of the man in my life are now racing thru my head at like 1000 miles an hour? He's done things WAY more things to make me think twice than M ever did to my friend and look what's happening to her. Maybe I'm over reacting, but then again maybe someone is pushing me to look deeper into something I might not want to find out myself.

Anyhoo....M, you make me sick! You don't deserve my friend, and I hope you realize what you've thrown away and regret it for the rest of your sad, little life!!!

Sorry ladies! Hugs and kisses

**YAWN**

Well I had my MRI yesterday, and all I can say is thank God for Valum. I do not like enclosed spaces and let me tell you I was sardened in there, strapped down, feet taped together, the works. No good kiddies. Me no likey!!

My mom and dad came over around 10:20am. We left my dad at my house in case we couldn't make it back in time for the little one to get off the bus. Mom and I get to the hospital, check in, blah blah. They call my name, I go back, she gives me 5mg of Valum and says if I don't feel anything in half an hour to let her know. Low and behold I felt a little 'warm" but still wound up. Ding! pill #2. They strapped my little butt down, do the testing (which for modern technology you would think the machiene would be QUIETER!!! WTF!!!) then they injected me with some crap, put me back in the hole, do more LOUD ASS testing, and then I was done.

Well, by this time I am FLYING!!! I mean past Superman flying. They said my doctor should have the results by the end of the week, and that they had to take a few extra pictures so that's why it took so long. (like I even realized the concept of time at that point) Hopefully the extra pictures were because they found something. *fingers crossed*

I had mom stop at Portillos on the way home, inhailed the food, and passed out on the couch around 2:30 until about 6:15. My poor little one. Grandma and Grandpa were long gone by this point, and she was sitting at the dining room table painting a horse statue for me. What a sweety she is. As soon as she saw I was awake she got up, came over to me, and while stroking my hair she asked if I needed anything. Funny thing...she hands me a glass of Grape Koolaid and when I asked who made it she says "I made it for you. Don't you remember? I asked you if you needed anything and you said Grape Kool aid, so I made you some" Don't remember that AT ALL. Poor little angel. Kids aren't suppose to take care of their parents, but when I apologized to her later she said she loves taking care of me because she feels bad that she can't do anything to make my pain go away, but if she feels good helping me out when I don't feel well. How blessed am I?!!

I still feel off kilter today. I guess that's why they tell you not to drive for 24 hrs, but I blew that one when I drove to work this morning. Oh well.

Sorry this post is so boring. I still can't really think straight. Guess I should've stayed home today too. Oh well. Hope all is well with everyone

Hugs and kisses

Oh Happy Day....50 things

SuperChick and I are on a mission to make life happy in blogger land. As posted a couple back, we all seem to be down in the dump for one reason or another. So, today we are going to look at the brighter side of life and list 50 things in your life that are positive, make you happy, or things to be happy about.

1. My medical issues are not life threatening
2. I haven't had a period in three months (and I'm not preggo)
3. My daughter is healthy
4. I have two of the cutest dogs on the whole planet
5. I have a job
6. and a roof over my head
7. I love how my daughter looks at me with such love in her eyes
8. I love cuddeling in bed with my dogs
9. I love that Larry sleeps under the covers with me
10. I love that Moe sleeps on top of my head
11. I actually like most of my neighbors
12. My daughter finally likes her new school
13. I have a great relationship with my mom
14. My dad has hung on for longer than I thought he would
15. I love that my brother in law is like the brother my parents never adopted :)
16. I'm greatful for my two bestfriends
17. I love my SUV
18. I love that my boyfriend gets me a new COACH bag every year for christmas (caddy
I know, but hey I would never shell out the loot myself)
19. I love that Americas Next Top Model is a show for the little one and me...ONLY
20. I love that that's special to her too
21. I'm happy about all the new freinds I've made in blogger land
22. I'm greatful people care enough to read & check back
23. I love how my bed feels after I've just changed the sheets
24. I love my thick, fuzzy blue socks in the winter
25. I love that the man can still make me laugh harder than anyone
26. I appreciate the fact that he's trying to be better when those before him didn't
think it was important
27. I love when my neice calls me Aunite Jamie in her 'little' voice
28. I love BeBe clothes
29. and Via Spiga shoes.....shoes in general make me happy
30. I love my warn Calvin Klein overalls
31. I love a good game of Hot Shots Golf on Playstation 2
32. I love when I actually beat him w/o the handicap function on
33. I'm happy God created Colin Ferril (EYE CANDY)
34. I love a nice, warm sweater
35. I LOVE snow/winter time
36. I look forward to walking in the ddor & getting plowed over my the little one
37. and then looking down at the dogs hopping up and down for kisses
38. I love getting kisses from Larry
39. I love that I can talk to him and he answers back with his sneezing noize (larry)
40. I'm grearful for the obsticles I've overcome
41. and for finding the strength I didn't think I had
42. I like my sence of humer'
43. and that I'm quick whitted
44. and a smart ass
45. I love scrapbooking
46. and curling up with a new Dean R Koontz book
47. I love finding a good sale
48. and having all my Christmas shopping done BEFORE Thanksgiving
49. I love my hair
50. It makes me happy to do things for other people...no matter how small

Happy Friday.....and TAG to KimmyK, SoozieQ, and Teena. Get to work ladies.

Hugs and kisses

Mums the word

Last weekend I finally got my mums. I got a great deal, and now everything outside is done. The one on the left will open up all yellow with burnt-orange edges, and the one on the right is a pinkish-purple. I have one more that I origionally put at the beginning of the walkway, but we had HORRIFFIC storms on Monday night, so now it's on the porch, on the ground, next to the pink one. I'm real happy with how it turned out. You know it's always pretty cool when you have an idea in your head and the end result looks just how you wanted it too. I'm proud of myself. It doesn't take much does it?

Not much been going on lately. With all the bad storms work has SUCKED all week. So busy with all the claims an flooding issues. The last three days have run right into the next. Good I guess, since the less I feel like I'm here the better, but still going home with a headache every night is still a bitch.

Can't wait to get my MRI over with. I've been in a lot of pain the last two days. I just hope they'll be able to put a finger on exactly WTF is going on with my womanly parts and fix it already!!!! I'm so tired of feeling like crap.

Question.....for now, they have me taking BC pills back to back (starting a new pack during that week you're suppose to bleed) They say bleeding isn't my friend (DUH), but I wonder if there are any long term effects or problems with doing this. Has anybody heard anything about this? Know someone who does it or has done this themselvs? Don't get me wrong, and I know I'm not alone on this one, but the less I have to have a period the better (I haven't had one since July 4th), but if it's going to cause me more issues later on.....you get my point.

Have a great day, ladies!!

Hugs and kisses

A couple funnies for today

I've noticed lately that my other blogging friends all seem to be in bad/sad/pissy moods. I myself am in this funk too. SO....I thought I would share a couple funnies in hopes that maybe we all can smile a little bit.





Here's to better days ladies!!

Hugs and kisses

Too funny!!!

WHERE IS THE DOCTOR WHO WILL GIVE ME A PERSCRIPTION FOR THESE???!!!!

Who's with me???

100 things..

KimmyK gave me this great idea so in true copy-cat fashion here's 100 things about me

1. I'm adopted
2. I don't know who my 'birth parents' are but I know who my PARENTS are
3. I've never wanted to find them either
4. I have brown hair
5. and brown eyes
6. My daughter looks EXACTLY like me
7. people always say how scarry the resemblence is
8. I had her when I was 20
9. I'm an 80's hair band FREAK!!
10. I listen to the arena rock music channel (on cable) every time I clean the house
11. I sing along to every song
12. I never liked dogs until I got my own
13. I still like my own over other peoples dogs
14. I worked in healthcare for 10 years
15. I miss it
16. I love to bake
17. I hate to cook
18. even when I do I'm not very good at it
19. I've been married once
20. and divorced
21. I'd marry again.....maybe
22. I only have 2 close girlfriends
23. I been friends with one of them for 13 years
24. I been friends with the other for over 5
25. I'm afraid to fly
26. After seeing Titanic you couldn't get me on a cruise for anything
27. I can't swim to save my life
28. I always seem to pick the wrong guy
29. They're always mean to me
30. I always put up with it for some reason
31. I've always lived in the same state
32. I lived at home until I was 22
33. I have one sister
34. she's 10 years older than me
35. we really don't have anything in common
36. I'm jealous of people who have close relationships with their sisters
37. My dad has Alzhimers
38. Sometimes he forgets my name
39. I have anxiety issues
40. I love having my hair pulled (tee hee)
41. and a little spanky, spanky
42. my mother would DIE if she knew
43. I'm Catholic
44. I'm a horriable speller
45. I love reading Dean R Koontz books
46. Where I'm living now is my favoriate
47. but I still kinda miss my last house
48. I drive past it every now and again
49. I've never had a one night stand
50. but I would if Colin Farrill was within a mile of me
51. he'd have to pull my hair too
52. I'm turning 30 in December
53. on New Years Eve
54. the thought kinda depresses me
55. I tend to get depressed easily
56. I took Paxil for awhile
57. I hated it and went off a year later
58. I drive a big SUV
59. It makes me feel like a more powerful driver on the road
60. My car is usually bigger...ha ha...move out the way
61. I've kissed a girl before
62. she was a stripper
63. it did nothing for me
64. I can't say the same for all the guys in the strip club
65. I love doing things for shock value
66. I used to be a wresteling freak
67. I got pulled out of the crowd and kissed by a wrestler on live TV once
68. I still have it on tape at home
69. I turned down a one night stand w another wrestler
70. I still think about what it might have been like when I see him on tv sometimes
71. I don't regret not doing it
72. I saw Def Leppard for the first time last summer
73. They're my all time Fav band
74. I've never knew I would be so consumed by the love I have for my daughter
75. A lot of things my mom did makes more sense now
76. I'm afraid to die
77. I've always been sickly
78. IT SUCKS
79. I'm afraid I'll never find Mr Right
80. 'cause I'm always wrapped up with Mr Wrong
81. I've never lived alone
82. My parents wouldn't let me go away to college
83. I'm going to insist my daughter does
84. I didn't feel popular until college
85. I was always picked on up until then
86. I swear too much
87. Sometimes I do it without realizing I am
88. I went thru a drug phase
89. It wasn't for me
90. I talk to my mom like 20 times a day
91. next to my daughter she's my life
92. I'm afraid I won't be able to cope when she dies
93. My exhusband tried to kill himself after I left him
94. Part of me still hasn't forgiven him for that
95. Part of me doesn't think I ever will
96. I'm too forgiving sometimes
97. I love bad boys
98. hense always finding Mr Wrong
99. Christmas is my fav holiday
100. I'm suprised I thought of 100 things

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