Well here it is the day before surgery #1, and I think I might be ready. I've got a few odds and ends to finish at home, but I'll do that inbetween drinking my poop juice later. (FUN!!) Work is well work, and nothing will fall apart while I'm gone. I've gotten most of what I needed to do here done anyways, so poo on anyone here who will bitch while I'm gone. Please send your good vibs and love my way, and pray with me that I don't wake up afterwards tomorrow and the doctor tells me that all was fine inside. We all doubt it, but it's still a fear I have in the back of my mind.
The weather people say by tomorrow morning we're suppose to have over 6 inches of snow on the ground. YEAH!!! Let's just see if that happens though. It's cold as heck outside today and very gloomy so here's to hoping for the white stuff. Maybe God will let it snow this time cause he knows snow makes me happy, and he wants me to smile tomorrow.....maybe!
The little one will be with her dad this weekend. She was suppose to be with me, but I just knew by saturday afternoon she would be bored out of her skull so asked him to take her. She's not to happy about it though. "But, mommy I'll be worried about you! Who will help you get to the bathroom and get you what you need?" Man, am I blessed or what with that little angel!! I am looking forward to her not having to see mom feeling crappy all the time and tired blah blah. She shouldn't have to worry about me it should be the other way around. Oh well, it's all almost over. After tomorrow I just need to get my knee fixed, heal up, then I'm back in business. ON TO WORKING ON THE NEW ME!! I can't wait!
I will try to post from home...something I've never done cause I'm too afraid jerk will find out some how, and I really don't want him knowing I have this blog. I'm sure if I cover my tracks at home like I do here at work I'll be fine. I promise I'll try my best. I'm sure a post or two on pain killers will make for some amusement anyways.
Well I'm off for now. I love you guys, and thanks (in advance) for all the kind thoughts and wishes!
BIG HUGS AND KISSES!!!
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Damn internet!
Every morning I come into work, get settled and then check in with all my blogger friends. This morning the damn computer/internet/blogger will not let me comment! It keeps telling me 'error on page' or some sh*t like that. GRRRRR So, for all my blogger friends I love you, I looked in on all of you, and I think I was able to comment to one or two of you, but Hyman will have to try again tomorrow. F'n blogger comment thingy.
Anyways, I was off yesterday and had the MRI on my knee. All went fine, the Valum rocked, and now only TWO DAYS LEFT until my first surgery. I am in a total panic, and have been all weekend. I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin on Sunday. I think I'm just putting too much pressure on myself to have everything 'perfect' before I'm laid up. I've decided to just let it be.
I did get a lot done though. My mom carted me around yesterday and I got the last of my Christmas shopping done. I still have to buy for jerk, but I'm not too concierned. I know that's bad...oh well. She took me grocery shopping too, so I don't have to worry about food (even though jerk offered to go for me today, but I'm too stubborn to let him help me these days), with the exception of my tree all the decorations are up. I can always do the tree next week or something. I guess that's about all I was looking to accomplish now that I think about it. YEAH!!
The next two weeks plus are going to fly by. I work a full day today, and only until 1 tomorrow. I have to drink that crap that makes you crap, so I prefer to be in my own home and bathroom for all that fun. My surgery is Friday and I won't be back to work until Wednesday. Tuesday my mom is taking me back to the knee doctor to get the results of my MRI from yesterday, and to see where we go from there. Good grief!! I will be sooooooo thankful when all this is over with, and I can me 'normal' again. I tell you unless I'm DYING I don't think you'll be able to get me into another doctors office for quite a long time. I'm so sick of that place! Just hearing the word doctor makes me gag.
Well gotta fly and be productive at work. Have to have all in order here before I go!
Hugs and kisses, and I promise I'll post tomorrow before I leave!
Anyways, I was off yesterday and had the MRI on my knee. All went fine, the Valum rocked, and now only TWO DAYS LEFT until my first surgery. I am in a total panic, and have been all weekend. I felt like I was going to crawl out of my skin on Sunday. I think I'm just putting too much pressure on myself to have everything 'perfect' before I'm laid up. I've decided to just let it be.
I did get a lot done though. My mom carted me around yesterday and I got the last of my Christmas shopping done. I still have to buy for jerk, but I'm not too concierned. I know that's bad...oh well. She took me grocery shopping too, so I don't have to worry about food (even though jerk offered to go for me today, but I'm too stubborn to let him help me these days), with the exception of my tree all the decorations are up. I can always do the tree next week or something. I guess that's about all I was looking to accomplish now that I think about it. YEAH!!
The next two weeks plus are going to fly by. I work a full day today, and only until 1 tomorrow. I have to drink that crap that makes you crap, so I prefer to be in my own home and bathroom for all that fun. My surgery is Friday and I won't be back to work until Wednesday. Tuesday my mom is taking me back to the knee doctor to get the results of my MRI from yesterday, and to see where we go from there. Good grief!! I will be sooooooo thankful when all this is over with, and I can me 'normal' again. I tell you unless I'm DYING I don't think you'll be able to get me into another doctors office for quite a long time. I'm so sick of that place! Just hearing the word doctor makes me gag.
Well gotta fly and be productive at work. Have to have all in order here before I go!
Hugs and kisses, and I promise I'll post tomorrow before I leave!
Monday, November 27, 2006
Monday meme & Hyman speaks.......
I've been tagged by KimmyK AND reformattingmybrain for the same thing (great minds think alike) so here's the diddy....
According to the rules…
Each player of this game starts with the “6 weird things about you”. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says “you are tagged” in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
1) I have to cut up all my food before I eat it. My mom tried to tell me that's a sign of an eating disorder (she watches way too much tv) but when I eat I want to eat not waste time cutting everything up....or something like that.
2) I have a routine when I take a shower....I follow it every time...now that I think about it I'm not even sure why....I have to wash & shave in a certain order
3) I talk to myself....A LOT....out loud. I don't ever find myself answering back, which I hear is good, but still. I only become selfconcience about it if I'm in a public place & I catch people looking at me. That's when I ususlly tell them "She can never wait her turn" their faces are priceless!!
4) I slack at the leg shaving thing in the winter. Not sure if this is wierd or not, but I do make sure the pits are always hair free cause hairy pits gross me out....I guess hairy legs should too but only in the summer.
5) I always have to make sure the closet door is closed in my bedroom, and I can't fall asleep until I make sure. Polterguiest f'd me up man!!
6) I have this super-fine, blonde patch of hair on the small of my back. You can only see it if it gets too long and sits on the top of my pants. Damn, that sounds gross, but it's not as bad as the visual. When my daughter was born one of the first things I did was turn her over to check the small of her back. Like mother like daughter!
Tag.....Superchick, SeeJane, Finelly, Hawkeye chick, HeatherB, Teena
Ok, now for ask Hyman....
SuperChick:He's going to be getting out after I get better. Not sure about the how or when just yet though.
Finelly:I'm not sure why we can't all just get along....I think some people are just born jerks. As for your second question please see SC's response ha ha
KimmyK:If I wasn't doing what I am now I'd be a Nurse. It's something I've always wanted to do. I worked in healthcare for 10 yrs before I got this gig, but had to take this gig b/c I needed a full time job asap and the hospital I worked for didn't have anything at the time. I was accepted into nursing school but had to turn it down b/c of my divorse. I should've just lived with my parents, but what can you do?
I have a 9 year old daughter. She'll be 10 in January.
My favoriate color besides black is purple....dark purple!!
Brad all the way!! I'm not a huge Brad fan, but he is a hottie in a couple of his flicks, and his body in Fight Club...YUMMY!!!!
Reformattingmybrian:The flap of the TP always has to be on top. If it's not I change it.
Speghetti- I switch the noodle up from regular to linguine and sometimes elbow macaroni. Sometimes I make meat sauce, but always lots of parm cheese!!
My favoriate gum....anything minty I guess. I do love Chicklets but they never last very long.
Fav drink.....Pepsi or a margareta (with Patrone tequila)
Thanks guys that was fun!!
Hugs and kisses
According to the rules…
Each player of this game starts with the “6 weird things about you”. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don’t forget to leave a comment that says “you are tagged” in their comments and tell them to read your blog.
1) I have to cut up all my food before I eat it. My mom tried to tell me that's a sign of an eating disorder (she watches way too much tv) but when I eat I want to eat not waste time cutting everything up....or something like that.
2) I have a routine when I take a shower....I follow it every time...now that I think about it I'm not even sure why....I have to wash & shave in a certain order
3) I talk to myself....A LOT....out loud. I don't ever find myself answering back, which I hear is good, but still. I only become selfconcience about it if I'm in a public place & I catch people looking at me. That's when I ususlly tell them "She can never wait her turn" their faces are priceless!!
4) I slack at the leg shaving thing in the winter. Not sure if this is wierd or not, but I do make sure the pits are always hair free cause hairy pits gross me out....I guess hairy legs should too but only in the summer.
5) I always have to make sure the closet door is closed in my bedroom, and I can't fall asleep until I make sure. Polterguiest f'd me up man!!
6) I have this super-fine, blonde patch of hair on the small of my back. You can only see it if it gets too long and sits on the top of my pants. Damn, that sounds gross, but it's not as bad as the visual. When my daughter was born one of the first things I did was turn her over to check the small of her back. Like mother like daughter!
Tag.....Superchick, SeeJane, Finelly, Hawkeye chick, HeatherB, Teena
Ok, now for ask Hyman....
SuperChick:He's going to be getting out after I get better. Not sure about the how or when just yet though.
Finelly:I'm not sure why we can't all just get along....I think some people are just born jerks. As for your second question please see SC's response ha ha
KimmyK:If I wasn't doing what I am now I'd be a Nurse. It's something I've always wanted to do. I worked in healthcare for 10 yrs before I got this gig, but had to take this gig b/c I needed a full time job asap and the hospital I worked for didn't have anything at the time. I was accepted into nursing school but had to turn it down b/c of my divorse. I should've just lived with my parents, but what can you do?
I have a 9 year old daughter. She'll be 10 in January.
My favoriate color besides black is purple....dark purple!!
Brad all the way!! I'm not a huge Brad fan, but he is a hottie in a couple of his flicks, and his body in Fight Club...YUMMY!!!!
Reformattingmybrian:The flap of the TP always has to be on top. If it's not I change it.
Speghetti- I switch the noodle up from regular to linguine and sometimes elbow macaroni. Sometimes I make meat sauce, but always lots of parm cheese!!
My favoriate gum....anything minty I guess. I do love Chicklets but they never last very long.
Fav drink.....Pepsi or a margareta (with Patrone tequila)
Thanks guys that was fun!!
Hugs and kisses
Friday, November 24, 2006
Copy kitty.......again
I saw this on another blog and thought it was fun....wait until you see who I tagged
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Oh good! No new pimples ;)
2. How much cash do you have on you?
$200
3. What’s a word that rhymes with “DOOR?”
Who**....naughty kitty
4. Favorite planet?
Pluto...I don't care what they say
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
My friend Barb
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Don't know...maybe Ta-Da...it just makes me laugh
7. What shirt are you wearing?
A grey Ralph Lauren sweater
8. Do you “label” yourself?
Somethines
9. Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently wearing?
Ugg
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Depends on how dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
I've read her blog a couple times...she seems cool
12. What does your watch look like?
Don't have one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"You talked me into it. I'm gonna go my usual route" the jerk was going out on the bike
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
Not sure but there's a White Hen two doors down
16. Whats a word that you say a lot?
F**k
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
My daughter
18. Last furry thing you touched?
A Roudolf costume
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Three
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
One
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
26
22. Your worst enemy?
Not sure
23. What is your current desktop picture?
David Beckham
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Bye, have fun!
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Million bucks.
26. Do you like someone?
Duh?
27. The last song you listened to?
The Christmas channel....It's the Holiday Season
28. What time of day were you born?
Early morning...1:27am
29. Whats your favorite number?
66...ha ha (anyone get it?)
30. Where did you live in 1987?
My parents house...Illinois
31. Are you jealous of anyone?
Just a little.
32. Is anyone jealous of you?
I doubt it!
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At home in bed
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Usually get frustrated and leave.
35. Do you consider yourself kind?
Yup
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
I have four
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Spanish would be the most useful....maybe stupid...do they teach that somewhere?
38. Would you move for the person you loved?
Yes.
39. Are you touchy feely?
Very!!!
40. What’s your life motto?
If I had balls they'd be bigger than yours!
41. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
My phone, my keys, my purse
42. What’s your favourite town/city?
Walt Disney World
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Coffee
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
Not sure
45. Can you change the oil on a car?
Not this one
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
He drove a truck
47. How far back do you know about your ancestry?
I don't know squat....I'm adopted
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy?
Not sure
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Where should I start??!!
50. Have you been burned by love?
Every time!!
Hugs and kisses..........TAG Superchick, KimmyK & Hawkeyechick!!
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Oh good! No new pimples ;)
2. How much cash do you have on you?
$200
3. What’s a word that rhymes with “DOOR?”
Who**....naughty kitty
4. Favorite planet?
Pluto...I don't care what they say
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
My friend Barb
6. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Don't know...maybe Ta-Da...it just makes me laugh
7. What shirt are you wearing?
A grey Ralph Lauren sweater
8. Do you “label” yourself?
Somethines
9. Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently wearing?
Ugg
10. Bright or Dark Room?
Depends on how dark
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
I've read her blog a couple times...she seems cool
12. What does your watch look like?
Don't have one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"You talked me into it. I'm gonna go my usual route" the jerk was going out on the bike
15. Where is your nearest 7-11?
Not sure but there's a White Hen two doors down
16. Whats a word that you say a lot?
F**k
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
My daughter
18. Last furry thing you touched?
A Roudolf costume
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
Three
20. How many rolls of film do you need developed?
One
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
26
22. Your worst enemy?
Not sure
23. What is your current desktop picture?
David Beckham
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Bye, have fun!
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
Million bucks.
26. Do you like someone?
Duh?
27. The last song you listened to?
The Christmas channel....It's the Holiday Season
28. What time of day were you born?
Early morning...1:27am
29. Whats your favorite number?
66...ha ha (anyone get it?)
30. Where did you live in 1987?
My parents house...Illinois
31. Are you jealous of anyone?
Just a little.
32. Is anyone jealous of you?
I doubt it!
33. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
At home in bed
34. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Usually get frustrated and leave.
35. Do you consider yourself kind?
Yup
36. If you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
I have four
37. If you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Spanish would be the most useful....maybe stupid...do they teach that somewhere?
38. Would you move for the person you loved?
Yes.
39. Are you touchy feely?
Very!!!
40. What’s your life motto?
If I had balls they'd be bigger than yours!
41. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
My phone, my keys, my purse
42. What’s your favourite town/city?
Walt Disney World
43. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Coffee
44. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
Not sure
45. Can you change the oil on a car?
Not this one
46. Your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
He drove a truck
47. How far back do you know about your ancestry?
I don't know squat....I'm adopted
48. The last time you dressed fancy, what did you wear and why did you dress fancy?
Not sure
49. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
Where should I start??!!
50. Have you been burned by love?
Every time!!
Hugs and kisses..........TAG Superchick, KimmyK & Hawkeyechick!!
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
Gobble, Gobble
HAPPY TURKEY DAY EVERYONE!!!!! Ok, it's tomorrow, but I won't be posting tomorrow so let's pretend ok?!
Everyone needs to cross their fingers that my boss lets us go home early today. After all he's not coming in...he's at home spending time with his family while we're stuck here. We're going to wait until closer to 4 to call him cause he'll be half in the bag by then, and thus we might have a better chance. Here's hoping!
Not much else on this end. Gonna go to my sisters tomorrow for turkey and the usual family gathering. We don't talk to much of our extended family anymore. Everyone's kids grew up, had thier own families, and we all kinda drifted apart. Every holiday is the same crowd. My mom and dad, my sister & brother-in-law and their 4 kids, and then me and the little one. It works. Too bad I can't drink this year, but oh well.
Well I'm off to go tanning. I'm already starting my mission of revamping my life, and first on the ajenda is my personal apperance. I know I haven't posted a pic of myself yet (I was thinking about posting one on my 30th), and I really don't have too much to complain about. The one thing that drives me nuts is the fact that I am so beyone pale. It must be the Irish in me, but damn I've always had such fair skin...too the point that I feel like I constantly look sick. It worked great growing up with school "My goodness are you pale! Do you need to go see the nurse? Are you feeling ok?" "Uh...no I'm not feeling that well. I think I need to go home" BING!! Now at 29 I'm a little self-consience about it. I don't want to look like a cheap, faux leather handbag or anything.....just a little color to look healthier! After that I just need to start putting on some weight.
5'6" 104 lbs = YUCK!! (and no boobies) Combined with the pale...no good kiddies!
So, that's part of my mission and now I must go start my mission. GOBBLE GOBBLE!!
Hugs and kisses
Everyone needs to cross their fingers that my boss lets us go home early today. After all he's not coming in...he's at home spending time with his family while we're stuck here. We're going to wait until closer to 4 to call him cause he'll be half in the bag by then, and thus we might have a better chance. Here's hoping!
Not much else on this end. Gonna go to my sisters tomorrow for turkey and the usual family gathering. We don't talk to much of our extended family anymore. Everyone's kids grew up, had thier own families, and we all kinda drifted apart. Every holiday is the same crowd. My mom and dad, my sister & brother-in-law and their 4 kids, and then me and the little one. It works. Too bad I can't drink this year, but oh well.
Well I'm off to go tanning. I'm already starting my mission of revamping my life, and first on the ajenda is my personal apperance. I know I haven't posted a pic of myself yet (I was thinking about posting one on my 30th), and I really don't have too much to complain about. The one thing that drives me nuts is the fact that I am so beyone pale. It must be the Irish in me, but damn I've always had such fair skin...too the point that I feel like I constantly look sick. It worked great growing up with school "My goodness are you pale! Do you need to go see the nurse? Are you feeling ok?" "Uh...no I'm not feeling that well. I think I need to go home" BING!! Now at 29 I'm a little self-consience about it. I don't want to look like a cheap, faux leather handbag or anything.....just a little color to look healthier! After that I just need to start putting on some weight.
5'6" 104 lbs = YUCK!! (and no boobies) Combined with the pale...no good kiddies!
So, that's part of my mission and now I must go start my mission. GOBBLE GOBBLE!!
Hugs and kisses
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
MY THEME FOR 2007!!
Here it is.....Hyman's theme for 2007!!! Here's my NEW attitude!
Whatcha think? Who's with me??!!
Ask Hyman......
Oh how I would LOVE to say this to half the people that I deal with at work. Sometimes I just have to hang up the phone and shake my head....silly people!!
On another note, KimmyK had such a fun idea on her post that I became cuerious (damn, that's not how you spell that) and thought I'd give it a try and see what would happen.
So here's your chance to ask me ANYTHING you want! Something you want to know about me, my life, why the sky is blue, whatever, and I'll post the answers in the next couple days. I bet the turnout will be small, but it sounded fun so whatever.
So now it's your turn....ask away!
Hugs and kisses
Monday, November 20, 2006
Happy Monday!
Yeah right! MONDAYS SUCK!!
At least it's a short(er) week this week, right? Too bad my boss is a jag and we have to work the day after Thanksgiving. I mean come on, is the insurance world going to fall apart if we had an extra day off? I doubt it, but oh well. Anyone else have to drag themselves in on Friday? *please let me know I'm not alone on this one*
I'd like to apoligize for my little poopy post on Saturday. I guess it was just one of 'those' days. I feel much better today though. The little one helped me put up the Christmas lights outside on Saturday, so now that's all done. I almost started decorating inside yesterday, and I just might go ahead and start tonight. Why not? I'm not having Thanksgiving at my house this year, and then I can take my time. Besides I was going to start this week anyways just at the end. That's it, I've made up my mind, Chistmas is going to start tonight at my house. Even though I won't turn the outside lights on until after Thanksgiving because I don't want my neighbors to know just how much of a dork I really am! LOL
11 days until my surgery...at least my Laporoscopy anyways. I'll find out about my knee tomorrow when I go see the Ortho guy. Good grief is this year over with yet? It was funny, the other day I went to pick up the little one from my parents and my dad asked me if I had a good day that day. I said "Well I haven't developed any new illness and knowone hit me today so yeah it's been a good day!" The little one piped in "Yeah, and she wasn't told about anymore surgery's either" We all laughed. It was a cool little family moment!
I guess that's it for today. Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Hugs and kisses
At least it's a short(er) week this week, right? Too bad my boss is a jag and we have to work the day after Thanksgiving. I mean come on, is the insurance world going to fall apart if we had an extra day off? I doubt it, but oh well. Anyone else have to drag themselves in on Friday? *please let me know I'm not alone on this one*
I'd like to apoligize for my little poopy post on Saturday. I guess it was just one of 'those' days. I feel much better today though. The little one helped me put up the Christmas lights outside on Saturday, so now that's all done. I almost started decorating inside yesterday, and I just might go ahead and start tonight. Why not? I'm not having Thanksgiving at my house this year, and then I can take my time. Besides I was going to start this week anyways just at the end. That's it, I've made up my mind, Chistmas is going to start tonight at my house. Even though I won't turn the outside lights on until after Thanksgiving because I don't want my neighbors to know just how much of a dork I really am! LOL
11 days until my surgery...at least my Laporoscopy anyways. I'll find out about my knee tomorrow when I go see the Ortho guy. Good grief is this year over with yet? It was funny, the other day I went to pick up the little one from my parents and my dad asked me if I had a good day that day. I said "Well I haven't developed any new illness and knowone hit me today so yeah it's been a good day!" The little one piped in "Yeah, and she wasn't told about anymore surgery's either" We all laughed. It was a cool little family moment!
I guess that's it for today. Hope everyone had a good weekend!
Hugs and kisses
Saturday, November 18, 2006
Hello weekend!
I'm so glad it's the weekend! Even though I'm working right now, but still. I can't believe how this year has flown by can you? It just doesn't seem like Christmas is around the corner; much less Thanksgiving. Boy oh Boy!
Why is it that when you're a kid each year seems to last FOREVER and as a grown up you barely have time to recover from one Christmas before the next one is knocking? Kinda sad when you think about it. It seems like all we do is rush, rush from one day to the next that the year seems to go by too quick. Before you know it you're one year older and so are all the people around you. Sometimes I look at the little one and I think to myself "God, when did you get so big?" I can still remember her little chubby cheeks at 2, and she'll be 10 in January. Before I know it my time as 'The most awesomest person to hang out with' will be over and she'll be asking me to drop her off at the corner and pretend I don't know her or something like that. I guess my worries haven't even begun with her yet if you think about it! I guess I just have to have faith that I did the best I could and she'll be smart enough not to F up too badly since she had SUCH a STABLE role model and all. I'm not that bad, I guess.
Maybe I'm having that 'Oh, shit I'm turning 30' panic attack or something. Maybe life is depressing the hell out of me. Maybe I feel like I still have TOO much to accomplish, and I can't even take the first step yet. Who knows. Maybe my hormones are out of wack today.
In other news.....would anyone like to start the bet on how long the TomKat marriage will last? Is it just me or does anyone else feel the overcontrolling husband vibe? Poor girl! She seems SO sweet, but he's turned into such a FREAK! Good heavens. Not that I wish divorse on anyone (trust me I've been there and it sucks) but just like Britney and that trailer park trash she married I hear a clock ticking.
tick...tick...tick
Hope everyone has a great weekend.....hugs and kisses
Why is it that when you're a kid each year seems to last FOREVER and as a grown up you barely have time to recover from one Christmas before the next one is knocking? Kinda sad when you think about it. It seems like all we do is rush, rush from one day to the next that the year seems to go by too quick. Before you know it you're one year older and so are all the people around you. Sometimes I look at the little one and I think to myself "God, when did you get so big?" I can still remember her little chubby cheeks at 2, and she'll be 10 in January. Before I know it my time as 'The most awesomest person to hang out with' will be over and she'll be asking me to drop her off at the corner and pretend I don't know her or something like that. I guess my worries haven't even begun with her yet if you think about it! I guess I just have to have faith that I did the best I could and she'll be smart enough not to F up too badly since she had SUCH a STABLE role model and all. I'm not that bad, I guess.
Maybe I'm having that 'Oh, shit I'm turning 30' panic attack or something. Maybe life is depressing the hell out of me. Maybe I feel like I still have TOO much to accomplish, and I can't even take the first step yet. Who knows. Maybe my hormones are out of wack today.
In other news.....would anyone like to start the bet on how long the TomKat marriage will last? Is it just me or does anyone else feel the overcontrolling husband vibe? Poor girl! She seems SO sweet, but he's turned into such a FREAK! Good heavens. Not that I wish divorse on anyone (trust me I've been there and it sucks) but just like Britney and that trailer park trash she married I hear a clock ticking.
tick...tick...tick
Hope everyone has a great weekend.....hugs and kisses
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
They say it happens in three's
Having said that (the title) I think my streak of bad luck has come to an end. Why do you ask?
Wait for it...............I was in a car accident!
I was on my way to work this morning, stopped at a stop sign, and this chick came flying over the train tracks, tried to make a right turn, and SLAMMED RIGHT INTO MY DRIVER SIDE DOOR!! BAM!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(damn I've been saying that a lot lately)
I'm OK. A little sore; I'm sure I'll really feel it tomorrow, but I'm ok. The Durango is repairable so I'm not too PO'd about that. My poor truck *sniffle* I just can't believe my luck this year. Oh well. At least I was in an SUV and not some little car. I'll tell you one thing I wouldn't be writing this post I'd be in the ER. God was watching over me for sure!! Thank you SO MUCH, Lord!!
I am on a mission to start the new year fresh and bullsh*t free. It'll be a new decade in my life (I turn 30 on New Years Eve), a new year, and a new start! I think it's time to kick my positive attitude into high gear, right? I've counted my blessing and tried to see the good in every shitty situation I've been in lately, and all in all it's not so bad. It could always be worse! I'm not dead or dying from any of the health issues I have, so I'd say that's pretty good. Wouldn't you? And since the old saying is that bad things happen in three's it can only get better from here!
Hugs and kisses
Wait for it...............I was in a car accident!
I was on my way to work this morning, stopped at a stop sign, and this chick came flying over the train tracks, tried to make a right turn, and SLAMMED RIGHT INTO MY DRIVER SIDE DOOR!! BAM!!! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(damn I've been saying that a lot lately)
I'm OK. A little sore; I'm sure I'll really feel it tomorrow, but I'm ok. The Durango is repairable so I'm not too PO'd about that. My poor truck *sniffle* I just can't believe my luck this year. Oh well. At least I was in an SUV and not some little car. I'll tell you one thing I wouldn't be writing this post I'd be in the ER. God was watching over me for sure!! Thank you SO MUCH, Lord!!
I am on a mission to start the new year fresh and bullsh*t free. It'll be a new decade in my life (I turn 30 on New Years Eve), a new year, and a new start! I think it's time to kick my positive attitude into high gear, right? I've counted my blessing and tried to see the good in every shitty situation I've been in lately, and all in all it's not so bad. It could always be worse! I'm not dead or dying from any of the health issues I have, so I'd say that's pretty good. Wouldn't you? And since the old saying is that bad things happen in three's it can only get better from here!
Hugs and kisses
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
# 2
Well I went to the doctor today about my knee and.......wait for it.....surgery #2 ladies and gents!
I have a Baker's cyst on the back of my right knee. I had x-rays today to make sure I don't have anything funky with the bone, I'll have an ultrasound on Friday so they can get a better picture of how big it is blah blah, and I have an appointment with an ortho doctor on Tuesday to go from there. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where is my box to ship myself to the Mayo clinic????!!!!! If it's not one thing it's another, good Lord! Damn is my boss going to love this when I tell him....NOT!
At this point I'm almost laughing about it all....almost. What can you do, right? It is what it is. Well now I know my New Years resolution....TO BE ALL BETTER. Hopefully I can get this taken care of asap so that, maybe, I can just be off for both problems in one lump of time....hopefully. Damn, good thing I have all my Christmas shopping almost done. Not gonna stress about the rest of it until after I see the ortho guy next week. Man oh man.
Well gonna fly...I gotta go sign up to donate my body to science. J/K (I know it all could be 10,000 times worse & I am counting my blessings)
Hugs and kisses
Monday, November 13, 2006
Who stole my snow??
Well, I had a pretty good weekend. I put a HUGE dent in my Christmas shopping for the little one on Saturday. God bless Target! I LOVE that store. Even when it's not Christmas I can't seem to walk out of there without spending AT LEAST $100. Damn! I found a couple more things online that I'm going to order for her, and I just might be about done then.
I have three more people to shop for then I'M DONE!! That's right you now you're all jealous....eithr that or you're sitting in front of your computer commenting about what a freak I am. Either way I'll be thinkg about you while you're trying to find a parking space at the mall in a couple weeks!! Ha ha....just kidding!
Not much other than that. Real relaxing weekend. I was almost so bold as to put up my Christmas lights outside, but obvously not turn them on yet. I've really been on a kick to get everything done. This Friday will be two weeks until my surgery, and I've already had little bouts of panic. I know all will be fine, but I'm more worried about not getting everything done that I want to before hand. Somehow I think I'll be ok. The little one has been such a HUGE help I can't thank God enought for her.
The only disappointing thing this weekend was IT NEVER SNOWED LIKE THE WEATHER PEOPLE PROMISED!!! WTF!!! I know, another thing I'm nuts for but I can't help it. I love snow, I don't even mind driving in it. Maybe that's because my Durango kicks serious ass in all weather conditions, so I just hop in and go!! Nope no snow for me just wet, cold, yucky looking outside to look at. Poop.
Hope everyone had a good weekend! Hugs and kisses.
Friday, November 10, 2006
I'm ready to be shipped to the Meyo clinic
That's it kids, I'm donating my body to science. Not that I haven't had enough medical issues to deal with now I have one more.
I've had this pain behind my right knee for about three weeks now. At first I was afraid I had developed a blood clot from taking the BC pills back to back for four months now. Nope. Good times. I chalked it up to sitting all f'd up on my chair at work all day and maybe it's just aggrevated. Well I can barely walk, I can't bend my knee all the way, and now the pain has moved down into my calf.
So I looked online this morning at WTF this could be from. Long story short I was reading about something called a Baker's cyst. Same symptoms and everything. So I had my coworker look at the back of my knees and right away she said "Oh my God, the back of your right knee is all swollen" Sure enough, there's this bubble/lump/not right looking thing. We were poking at it and it feels like a bubble. DAMN THE MAN!!
So I then called my friend that works for an orthopedic office and they all said I need to get my ass to the doctor to get that thing drained ASAP. WTF!!! The kicker of it all is that the cause is Arthritis (because I'm not a fitness buff so injury is ruled out) Which means that those damn shots I got made me develop arthritis in my knee. Which makes sence cause when I was on those shots my knees used to ache me to TEARS all the time. My friend who went thru all the same crap developed arthritis in her hip from those shots. Again, WTF!!!! When does it end?!
On a better note, all is calm. I'm going to try to get my Christmas shopping done this weekend, so that I don't have anything to worry about while I'm laid up. My mom gave the little one a Target toy catalog to browse thru (to help me out) and she marked it all up. YES!!! That makes my life a lot easier. What else....OOHHH it's suppose to snow tomorrow!!! La la la...I love snow...la la la....I love snow!! Finally it'll be pretty when I look outside, but f'd up cause it was 70 here yesterday. Whatever happened to the seasons when we were younger? I don't remember any of this 70 one day snowing two days later shit. Oh well. Bring on the white stuff....snow that is. LOL
Hope everyone has a great weekend and TGIF!!!!! Hugs and kisses
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Just another day
Not much been going on in my neck of the woods. It's been warmer here, but raining. YUCK!!
I put all of my Halloween decorations away this weekend, and while I was trying to put one of the boxes up on the shelf in the garage it fell. Needless to say that 98% of my breakable decorations BROKE!! I just stood there....I didn't even know how to react at first. Well then I broke down, called my mom, and SOBBED. All my stuff broken....gone....in the garbage....going to the land fill. I'm still pissed about it. Oh well. Both mom and the jerk offered to buy me all new stuff, but I want my old stuff back. *sniffle, sniffle*
Then a couple days before that SOMEONE STOLE ONE OF OUR PUMPKINS!! WTF!! It wasn't carved cause the little one didn't feel like it this year, but I left them out there (with my mums) for fall. Some asshole took it while I was at work on Friday. I couldn't believe it. It's just a pumpkin, yes I know, but for someone to come up on my porch and take something is just rude. Oh well, good thing it wasn't one of those $20 pumpkins. J/K
Really, kids that's about it for now. Just trying to get all in order b4 my surgery. Christmas shopping, decorations, crap around the house, errands, blah blah. I'm told I'll be laid up for a bit so better over ready than not ready I guess.
Hugs and kisses
I put all of my Halloween decorations away this weekend, and while I was trying to put one of the boxes up on the shelf in the garage it fell. Needless to say that 98% of my breakable decorations BROKE!! I just stood there....I didn't even know how to react at first. Well then I broke down, called my mom, and SOBBED. All my stuff broken....gone....in the garbage....going to the land fill. I'm still pissed about it. Oh well. Both mom and the jerk offered to buy me all new stuff, but I want my old stuff back. *sniffle, sniffle*
Then a couple days before that SOMEONE STOLE ONE OF OUR PUMPKINS!! WTF!! It wasn't carved cause the little one didn't feel like it this year, but I left them out there (with my mums) for fall. Some asshole took it while I was at work on Friday. I couldn't believe it. It's just a pumpkin, yes I know, but for someone to come up on my porch and take something is just rude. Oh well, good thing it wasn't one of those $20 pumpkins. J/K
Really, kids that's about it for now. Just trying to get all in order b4 my surgery. Christmas shopping, decorations, crap around the house, errands, blah blah. I'm told I'll be laid up for a bit so better over ready than not ready I guess.
Hugs and kisses
Friday, November 03, 2006
My-Play by Play
SuperChick had a cool idea to create a timeline of her life & challenged us to do the same. Man, what to put in and what to leave out. Let's give this one a whirl...
* Born 12/31/1976 in Hinsdale, Il & put into foster care
* Febuary '77 I was adopted
* At three I had my tonsels taken out
* In the summer on 1991 I was assulted by a 'good' friend. Court & blah blah after that
* Fall of 1991 I started dating my first serious boyfriend BT
* 1992 I met my best friend M
* Winter 1993 BT asked me to marry him (I know high school still, right?)
* Summer 1994 I woke up and broke it off
* Starting dating TR right after
* January 1995 M & I graduated from H.S. early and I started nursing school
* May 1995 I got my first job at a hospital on a Med/Surg floor
* Winter 1995 broke up w TR & got restraining order cause he got obsessed and held a shot gun to my head (NIICE)
* Met my little ones dad thru mutual friends and started dating
* Spring 1996 got knocked up (sounds so nice)
* June 1996 little ones dad moved here from Ga and asked me to get hitched....turned him down
* August 1996 he moved back to Ga & we begin to hate eachother
* January 1997 he moves back up here & the little one is born
* Spring 1997-he tries to reconsile, I'm not having it, now he takes me to court for custody & visitation (even though he was coming over every weekend to see her) ????
* August 1998 I met my XH
* 12/31/98 XH asked me to marry him on my 22nd birthday
* Febuary '99 we buy our first house
* 8/21/1999 I got married. My daughter was the flower girl & his son was ring berrer
* 5/1/2004 I walked out after years of mental abuse and moved back home with the parents
* June 2004 we're officially divorced
* July 3rd, '04 I got my very first place on my own
* somewhere in here my XH tried to kill himself and is put in the hospital for 3 weeks
* July 30, 2004 I met the current waste of time and he moved in 4 mths later
* 11/3/2006 Here we are today!
Damn....kinda boring life....nothing but relationship crap. Oh well it was still fun!
TGIF!!
* Born 12/31/1976 in Hinsdale, Il & put into foster care
* Febuary '77 I was adopted
* At three I had my tonsels taken out
* In the summer on 1991 I was assulted by a 'good' friend. Court & blah blah after that
* Fall of 1991 I started dating my first serious boyfriend BT
* 1992 I met my best friend M
* Winter 1993 BT asked me to marry him (I know high school still, right?)
* Summer 1994 I woke up and broke it off
* Starting dating TR right after
* January 1995 M & I graduated from H.S. early and I started nursing school
* May 1995 I got my first job at a hospital on a Med/Surg floor
* Winter 1995 broke up w TR & got restraining order cause he got obsessed and held a shot gun to my head (NIICE)
* Met my little ones dad thru mutual friends and started dating
* Spring 1996 got knocked up (sounds so nice)
* June 1996 little ones dad moved here from Ga and asked me to get hitched....turned him down
* August 1996 he moved back to Ga & we begin to hate eachother
* January 1997 he moves back up here & the little one is born
* Spring 1997-he tries to reconsile, I'm not having it, now he takes me to court for custody & visitation (even though he was coming over every weekend to see her) ????
* August 1998 I met my XH
* 12/31/98 XH asked me to marry him on my 22nd birthday
* Febuary '99 we buy our first house
* 8/21/1999 I got married. My daughter was the flower girl & his son was ring berrer
* 5/1/2004 I walked out after years of mental abuse and moved back home with the parents
* June 2004 we're officially divorced
* July 3rd, '04 I got my very first place on my own
* somewhere in here my XH tried to kill himself and is put in the hospital for 3 weeks
* July 30, 2004 I met the current waste of time and he moved in 4 mths later
* 11/3/2006 Here we are today!
Damn....kinda boring life....nothing but relationship crap. Oh well it was still fun!
TGIF!!
Thursday, November 02, 2006
'Tis the season
It's official kiddies....Christmas is coming! They just starting playing Christmas music on the station we listen to at work. *sing it Bing* I F'N LOVE CHRISTMAS!!!!! It's my all time FAVORIATE holiday, and damnit all I need some cheer in my life. I haven't even finished taking down all the Halloween decor and I've gotta get the Thanksgiving decorations up already.
This is how much of a holiday decorating freaky whore I am.....on the 1st of October the Halloween decorations go up. After trick or treating is over they come down and the Thanksgiving decorations go up for the 1st of November. Then (you guessed it) the day after Thanksgiving those come down and up goes Christmas. I leave those up until after the 1st of the year though cause my birthday is New Years Eve and I like the house decorated still for that. Yup...I have a holiday decorating obsession. What can I say it's one of the things I really enjoy doing. YEAH!!
Lalala la la la la...hhhmmmm....hhhmmmmm....chestnuts....la la la la...santas on his way....hmmm hmmm hmmm la la la Ok enough of that....sorry got carried away for a second. Oh, boy now all I need is some snow go go with this cold ass wheather we're having. I F'N LOVE SNOW!!! (do you see a pattern here) I hate when it's cold outside and there's nothing pretty to look at. Snow, snow, snow.
Ok gotta fly. Gotta get started on my Christmas list since I've been extra good this year. LOL.
Hugs and kisses
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Happy (belated) Halloween!!
Boy it's been a bit since I posted. Well lets see....
Ron White ROCKED!! We laughed from start to finish. He did all new material, and let me tell you when all of it comes out on DVD it's goin in my collection. We went out to dinner afterwards, and if my dinner had agreed with me I would've had a great time. Needless to say I was up all night with my tummy and the little one. She woke up Sunday morning with a fever, and we both stayed home on Monday.
I went to the other doctor yesterday morning and my surgery is scheduled for December 1st. I feel a little better that it's not this week cause I was going out of my mind trying to get the house in order before I was laid up. Well her getting sick set me back, so I'll gladly wait another month. The pills he gave me help with the pain, so now I just have to wait for time to pass.
I've decided to get off my poopy chair and change the things in my life that are bringing me down. I've put my priorities in order and things are going to start changing. I'm tired of being unhappy, I'm tired of feeling overwhelmed with life,a nd I'm tired of settling for less than I deserve!! First I'm going to get better, then he's out and I'm getting a new job.
All has calmed down on the home front. I've kinda put it all on the back burner, for now, sort of. He still knows I think he's full of s**t, that I'm not dumb, that it's not ok, that he's been cut off because of it, and that I'm not done dealing with/reacting to the situation. He's left wondering what I'm going to do next. Well, like I said, as soon as I get better he's outta there. I get my diggs in everyday, and I'm actually getting a kick out of it. Monday he called to see how we were feeling, and for some reason decided to tell me he was horney. "Well, I'm sure you'll have that taken care of before you come home from work tonight." "Babe, don't say things like that" "Well, we both know it's true. Bye, Bye now" *click* I giggled. I so bad...NOT!!
My boss, as always, has been such a jerk about me being sick. He has to get all his shitty comments in about how I'm disrupting his business and why can't I just go get a hysterectomy already. WOW thanks DICK! I told him yesterday, right after he made a comment about if someone would stop being sick already that he could get more work done, that he was a POS and a piece of work. "Well it's true" "Yeah, it's true that your a piece of shit, and ignorant beyond all belief and if you're not careful you'll be doing ALL the work." "OOOH like that's a big threat" What an ass. If I wasn't barried in medical bills I would've packed up right there and started Halloween early. This is just another aspect of my life that just isn't worth it anymore. *bing, on the check list of change*
First and foremost I need to get better. Being sick for so long (8 months) has really taken a toll on me in every way. How can I find the strength to change my life if I can't even find the strength to function sometimes? Not gonna happen. So health is first, job and a new boyfriend (well getting rid of the current one) are tied for second. After that I have a feeling that happiness will be a flowin' in my direction. It will be time for me. ME....wow...that's something I haven't really made a priority in I don't know how long.
On the way to the doctor yesterday my mom was giving me the lecture that she doesn't want me to stop dating after he leaves. Go out, have fun, meet people. Ok, I get it, but I think I'm done with relationships for awhile....quite awhile. I've been taken for a ride, by two of the more worthless men, for the last 8+ years and it's time for a break. Time to heal. Time for me. Me and my little one and that's it. I'm gonna reconnect with my friends, I'm gonna go where ever I want withoput having to answer or check in with anyone. I'm getting ready.
Hope everyone had a fun Halloween!
Ron White ROCKED!! We laughed from start to finish. He did all new material, and let me tell you when all of it comes out on DVD it's goin in my collection. We went out to dinner afterwards, and if my dinner had agreed with me I would've had a great time. Needless to say I was up all night with my tummy and the little one. She woke up Sunday morning with a fever, and we both stayed home on Monday.
I went to the other doctor yesterday morning and my surgery is scheduled for December 1st. I feel a little better that it's not this week cause I was going out of my mind trying to get the house in order before I was laid up. Well her getting sick set me back, so I'll gladly wait another month. The pills he gave me help with the pain, so now I just have to wait for time to pass.
I've decided to get off my poopy chair and change the things in my life that are bringing me down. I've put my priorities in order and things are going to start changing. I'm tired of being unhappy, I'm tired of feeling overwhelmed with life,a nd I'm tired of settling for less than I deserve!! First I'm going to get better, then he's out and I'm getting a new job.
All has calmed down on the home front. I've kinda put it all on the back burner, for now, sort of. He still knows I think he's full of s**t, that I'm not dumb, that it's not ok, that he's been cut off because of it, and that I'm not done dealing with/reacting to the situation. He's left wondering what I'm going to do next. Well, like I said, as soon as I get better he's outta there. I get my diggs in everyday, and I'm actually getting a kick out of it. Monday he called to see how we were feeling, and for some reason decided to tell me he was horney. "Well, I'm sure you'll have that taken care of before you come home from work tonight." "Babe, don't say things like that" "Well, we both know it's true. Bye, Bye now" *click* I giggled. I so bad...NOT!!
My boss, as always, has been such a jerk about me being sick. He has to get all his shitty comments in about how I'm disrupting his business and why can't I just go get a hysterectomy already. WOW thanks DICK! I told him yesterday, right after he made a comment about if someone would stop being sick already that he could get more work done, that he was a POS and a piece of work. "Well it's true" "Yeah, it's true that your a piece of shit, and ignorant beyond all belief and if you're not careful you'll be doing ALL the work." "OOOH like that's a big threat" What an ass. If I wasn't barried in medical bills I would've packed up right there and started Halloween early. This is just another aspect of my life that just isn't worth it anymore. *bing, on the check list of change*
First and foremost I need to get better. Being sick for so long (8 months) has really taken a toll on me in every way. How can I find the strength to change my life if I can't even find the strength to function sometimes? Not gonna happen. So health is first, job and a new boyfriend (well getting rid of the current one) are tied for second. After that I have a feeling that happiness will be a flowin' in my direction. It will be time for me. ME....wow...that's something I haven't really made a priority in I don't know how long.
On the way to the doctor yesterday my mom was giving me the lecture that she doesn't want me to stop dating after he leaves. Go out, have fun, meet people. Ok, I get it, but I think I'm done with relationships for awhile....quite awhile. I've been taken for a ride, by two of the more worthless men, for the last 8+ years and it's time for a break. Time to heal. Time for me. Me and my little one and that's it. I'm gonna reconnect with my friends, I'm gonna go where ever I want withoput having to answer or check in with anyone. I'm getting ready.
Hope everyone had a fun Halloween!
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