She's Crafty!!

Tada! Here is the invitations I made for the little one's birthday party. So simple, yet I love them. I so proud of my 'skills'. I'm telling you if I could find a way to make money from doing this kinda stuff I'd be first in line. My friend who taught me all about the scrapbooking/card making ways used to make a bunch of card packets and set up a table at local craft events. Hmmmm....something to make a mental note about.

So, last night I watched 'City of Angles' (for like the 100th time). Love, love, love that movie. Has me bawling like a baby every damn time too. For some reason this time really had me thinking about stuff. About God and angles and all that spiritual stuff. I know I don't go to church every week like my mom would like, but I feel like I have an awesome relationship with God. Him and I talk frequently!! Last year especially....ha ha. There was one part in the movie where Nicholas Cage and the other angel were having a conversation about why humans can't see angles. They were in a convienience (damn that doesn't look like how you spell that) store where a robbery was about to take place. They each put their hands on the robber and the store owner, and a sense of peace/calm came over them. A sense like everything was going to be ok. The one angel looked at Cage, afterwards, and said "They don't need to see us." Kinda like they/we just know they're there....at all the right times too. I really feel like this is true.

I know I've found both strength and peace at times when I didn't think I would/could. I've felt that overwhelming calm wash over me. Only a couple times, but it was unexplainable. It made me think about when I left my husband. I had the truck all packed up in the garage, and was standing on the landing/entryway heading downstairs to leave....and I couldn't. I was physically frozen in fear. That's when I prayed. I asked God that if this was really what I was suppost to do that I needed his help to walk away. If not I would march back upstairs and figure something else out. I stood there, for what seemed like forever, both shaking and frozen in fear. Then a clam washed over me. Somehow I knew all was going to be ok, that I was making the right decision, and then my feet moved. I never looked back. The experience left me speechless for quite awhile.

I know there are lots of us going thru a lot of shit right now. I'm not trying to jump on the bible band wagon, it's just not me, but I think as long as we believe that God or whomever you believe in knows how things are suppose to be, and when, that maybe things will be a little bit easier to deal with. I know I find comfort in that. Maybe some of you will too.

Love you guys, and I'm here for you! (you know who you are) We'll get thru all this crap, somehow, but at least we have eachother.

Hugs and Kisses

Guess What?!!

It's snowing!! Snow, snow, snow, snow....la la la la la! I'm such a geek, I know, but me LOVE a good snow and it's a winter wonderland here. YEEAAHH!!

Relaxing weekend...it was nice. I ended up not having to work on Saturday which ROCKED!!! I stayed home and cleaned and napped and played with my puppies, and cleaned some more and napped some more and played with the puppies some more....you get the picture. The little one went with her dad, so all was quiet. I miss her so much when she goes, but I will admit I do enjoy some me time too. Too bad she's still sick. I called her in, again, today and she went with my parents. This darn cold bug just won't let go. Hopefully she'll feel better tomorrow 'cause she has to pass out her birthday invitations (which I made by the way) for her party Saturday. They came out great and jerkmo was even impressed. I was too; I love them! Scrapbooking/card making is my one hobby that I adore! If only there was a way to make money off of it I'd be in heaven! OOHHH maybe that's what I'll do....I should see if Archivers is hiring......hmmmm I'll have to look into that later.

Anyways did I mention that I was snowing here? Oh yeah, I did, right, sorry. What else? Hmmmm.......jerkmo and I had a good weekend together. Not that it should matter anymore, but it still was good for a change. I just wish that all the rest of the crap could fall into place. Oh well. Only happy thoughts today! Why? Because I'm tired of crying the blues. It's time to pull my big girl panties up and start changing the stubborn aspects of my life that, obvously, need a little boot in the backside to get going.

Step one: New job
Step two: Out with the old & at this point I don't even care if a new one comes along
Step three: Sit back & enjoy life.....finally!

Damn that sounds like a good ass plan to me!! Yeah, baby. Snow always puts me in a good mood. Whew! Well I guess I should go be productive cause my desk looks like a tornado hit, and that drives me nuts.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!

Hugs and kisses

I don't think so!

So last year I got called to Jury duity like a million times. With all the medical crap I was dealing with, and the money crunch I was in too, I kept asking for a postponement for both of those reasons. I don't get paid if I'm not here, and the measly $10 they pay you to serve just wasn't cutting it in my check book. Ok no problem. So in late September I got a note from one of my doctors for an excusal. I forgot to send it in, but I did let them know I had one.

Fast forward to two weeks ago......
I get a certified letter in the mail from the Jury Comission threatening to issue a warrent for my arrest, for contempt of court, because I had not served Jury duity. Holy Shit!! So, this morning I had to go before the comission to 'explain' why I couldn't serve the 10 million dates from last year. So I armed myself with my sick child, my $23,000+ in medical bills, and my W2 form from last year (which showed I brought home less than my medical bills totalled by the way) ready to put up a fight. I was ready to (God forgive me) pull the single mother card (which I NEVER do, but I was desperate) and get myself out of this crap. I didn't even have to go any farther than the check-in lady.

She pulled her copy of my letter, asked if this was a medical issue, asked for my letter from my doctor, and BAM filed my excusal papers! Just like that I got excused. THANK GOD!!!! I was so happy I was ready to cry. I don't even have so much as a parking ticket on my record and they were threatening to issue a warrent for my arrest.....for not going to jury duity....are you people kidding me?! Good Lord!!! Good thing our judicial system is keeping up with all the IMPORTANT things right?

Anyways, yes, the little one is sick....again....with that damn cold bug that just won't f'n die!!! She got out of the shower last night & looked like she was ready to be laid to rest. Poor baby. I didn't even blink at calling her into school this morning. She needs her rest because I sure as hell don't want to get sick......again! Sonsobitches! lol

Not much else. I have to work tomorrow (BOOOOO) but nothing other than that. Not exciting anyways. SSDD!! Too bad too because the same sh*t different day is getting pretty boring.

Have a great weekend, everyone! Hang in there.....you know who you are ;)

Big Hugs and Kisses

I just had to...a couple funnies for the day

Don't you just love not wanting to work when you're suppose to?!!!

Thanks guys

Thanks for all your sweet responses to yesterdays post. I decided to print it out for her on this really adoriable paper the other girl here brought for me. It has a little girl dressed as an angel, sitting on a cloud in the corner of the paper. It couldn't look more perfect. I'm going to give it to her tonight. I hope she'll love it as much as I do, and if not....too bad for her. lol

Anyways, she had a nice birthday. I decorated the dining room the night before, and she loved it when she came downstairs in the morning. I also put stuff up on the front door blah blah. Well then after work I stopped and got her one more present and a cake from the Jewel. It was way too f'n adorable (I'll have to get a picture up here somehow). It was one of those 1/8 sheet cakes (since it was only going to be her, jerkmo, and I) and it was decorated like a present. Way too cute!!! I think I loved how it looked more than her, but she did really like it.

I'm having her party next Saturday since she goes with her dad this weekend, and I just didn't have my shit together for last weekend. **Reminder to self to make invitations tonight** She still hasn't decided on a theme. This is where I miss her being too little to make up her own mind 'cause I live for that kinda stuff. Oh well. She's really good about getting someone elses (my) opinion, so I still kinda have a say so...sort of.

Not much else. Isn't that always the way it is? Went online, again, looking for another job. Once again NOTHING!! I thinking about, maybe, two part time jobs or something. There's tons of part time jobs out there, really close to home too, but obviously I need a full time paycheck. I'll figure something out; I have to. I would love to take your advise and get a head hunter, but I don't have any money to spare to pay for one. Oh all will work out somehow.

Well gotta fly. I guess I should actually do some work.

Hugs and kisses

Happy Birthday my angel!!

10 years ago today, at this very moment, I was in a hospital bed both scared and elated. I couldn't wait to see you! My life had already changed so much from the moment I found out you were going to be in my life, but now was going to be a whole new chapter in both our lives. I was going to officially be your mommy, and it was never more scared.

Everything you did, your very exhistance was going to depend on me. You were going to depend on me. There was no way I was going to let you down. God had sent you to save me. To let me know that all wasn't lost, and that I still had good to do here. I still had a purpose. You were already my everything! My memories of life before you were already a thing of the past. You were already my little angel. You were the most beautiful creature I had ever seen, and will ever come across in my entire life! God had truly blessed me.

Over the last 10 years we have been through a lot. More than I had ever wanted you to go thru at such a young age, but through it all you have always been my rock. You have always been there to dry my tears and tell me all was going to be ok. You were always the one to tell me that as long as we had eachother knowone else mattered. You were always right. You are so way past the 10 years you've been on this earth; you are my little angel sent from above to help me keep going. I promise I will never let you down!!

I have never felt a love like I have for you. It brings me to tears. You are my everything, my strength, my greatest weakness, my life, my love, my bestist friend, my punky-poo, my Sprina.

Happy Birthday, my angel. You'll never know how much I love and live for you. Hopefully someday God will bless you with a little angel of your own, and then you'll understand how much you fill my heart.

All my love now and forever,
~mommy-cooks

Hugs and kisses

Tagged by HawkeyeChick

Ok, 5 things you probably didn't know about me:

1. I can't fall asleep at night unless the tv is on (baaad habit)

2. I really, really want a boob job....and some Botox

3. My little one is going to be 10 tomorrow!!!

4. My dream car is a '98 Jaguar XJ8VP (black of course)

5. I woke up this morning pissed off, beyond all belief, and I have no clue why


Let me elaborate on #5....Ever have one of those kinda days? I woke up this morning all hell bend and pissed off. No clue why. Maybe it was because I got woken up early with someone pounting a for sale sign in my front yard (for the neighbor), and then the dog proceeded to walk back and forth, above my head, for the next hour growling out the window. Maybe it's because I had a shitty day here yesterday, and still had to come back today. Maybe it's because I haven't heard a damn thing from that job I applied for, and I have no clue why. Maybe life is just wearing on my last nerve. Too many maby's I guess.

I had a good weekend though. Friday night we went out to dinner with our neighbors. Saturday I got SO much done I was way proud of myself. Sunday I spent with my mom shopping. The Bears are playing my Colts in the Super Bowl. All was good. So why my pissy mood?

The more I think about it I think it really has to do with this place. I feel so unbelieveably stuck here. I have been trying for almost two years to get the f out of here, and not one bite yet. Not even a f'n nibble. I don't get it. Maybe my days of being over qualified are drifting away, but not really. Maybe I made a big mistake getting out of the medical field in the first place because knowone wants to let me back in. WTF!! All I do know is I am going nowhere fast here, and I can't pay my bills. This place sucks. I, also, truly believe that that's why I've stayed with jerkmo because I can't make it on my own at what I'm being paid here. Not even close! And I'm suppose to me a manager for goodness sake!! BS!! He gave me a raise this year.......wait for it.....wait for it......2,000 more per year. Which is like 50 cents per paycheck BEFORE taxes. Oh don't break the bank you cheapass. Did I mention that HE or should I say WE helped him to take home 1.2 MILLION last year?? And did I mention that I don't even make 30k a year?? I'm telling you I'm ready to go to Target or something like that. This is just bs already.

That's it...I feel stuck in life right now. I am so way beyond thankful that all my health issues are resolved. It's almost surreal at how much better I feel. I have my energy back, I have no more pain, I had a 'normal' period this month that I was able to manage with Motrin, I'm not popping pills anymore to be able to function and I can't feel more greatful. It almost makes all that crap worth it since I'm better now. Even my dad said something to my mom on Sunday 'cause I dropped the little one off at Sunday school, went over to my parents, and immediatly started shoveling the entire driveway. I guess they even noticed the difference in me. I do too, and it feels awesome!!!!

Now if the rest of the things I want to change would start to give way all would be peaches. I just want to call the place I applied at and say "Hey, everything you were looking for I have and then some so WTF??" I guess God sees something better out there for me. I just wish I knew what it is. Maybe that would ease my frusterations a bit. Just too many maybe's.

Sorry about the ranting....again.

Hugs and kisses

Sometimes I wonder......

You know that song by Alecia Keys Fallin'? It was her first hit. That song sums up my current relationship. "How can you give me so much pleasure, but then cause me so much pain?" Every single time I hear that song I cry. Moral of the song?.....she's stuck and can't let go even though she knows she should. That's me.

Sometimes it feels like we can fix things, but other times (like 5 minutes ago) I really have to wonder. I'm not going to get into the details, but I swear this boy is bipolar. Something's not right upstairs, and sometimes I really have to wonder. What am I really getting out of this? Granted, he's great provider, we do have tons of fun together, all the physical bs, he's great to my daughter, blah blah. It's just his temper. His fuse is like 'this' big, and anymore when his cannon goes off I just wish I could hit him in the head with something. Hard! Feeling that way isn't right, right?

I know everyone has their problems, but when the bad moments no matter how small just make you want to throw all the good out the window......I just don't know what to make of it. When he gets into one of his ranting modes I feel like all I have to do is defend myself, but he won't even listen to anything I have to say. WTF is with that? That's usually when I wish he was in front of me so I could pound the shit out of him, and tell him to shut up and listen for a minute. So stupid!! He drives me nuts sometimes.

Anyhoo, I think God is trying to tell me not to settle. He's been showing me, in ubundance lately for some odd reason, that jerkmo isn't the only one who would love to spend time with me. That there are nice guys out there. That not all guys are assholes. That 'normal' relationships are still possible. I've just been releshing in the flattery and declining. I'm just not the type of girl to run around, when I'm still involved, just because things are shitty on the home front. Never have been and never will. Just not my style. But it still makes me wonder.

So, sorry about the rant. I hung up on him and started blogging my frustrations away. The bitch is he calls back, like 2 minutes later, and acts like nothing's wrong. VERY typical of him, and that drives me mental too. Is that his way of trying to smooth things over? How about "I'm sorry I'm such a bipolar dickhead"? Sometimes I don't think I'll ever figure men out, and sometimes I'm tired of trying.

Hugs and kisses

I just gotta.....

Ok, so HawkeyeChick & SuperChick have come across a list from several years back on several reasons to veto a potential boyfriend. This got me to thinking about all the characters I've dated and I thought I'd come up with a list of my own.........

1. He has more hair products than you do
2. He's had more plastic surgery than you
3. He feels the need to 'brag' about all the women he's been with.....and then wonder why you're grossed out and won't kiss him goodbye
4. He thinks it's important to keep reminding you that his car is an anniversary addition
5. He's drooling over another guy more than you.....HELLO!!! red flag, red flag!!!
6. He won't get his shoulder out of your face during sex
7. His friends won't stop paging him when they know he's with you
8. He takes his pants off and your first thought is "You've gotta be kidding me!"
9. He makes a weird grunting noise during sex....that grosses you out
10. Everytime he looks at you you feel naked....in a bad way
11. He's old enough to be your dad
12. He's addicted to internet porn
13. He tells you "Well if you won't I'll find someone else who will"
14. He has a BIG bottle of hand cream next to his bed
15. He picks you up wearing black jeans, a sweater, and a leather biker jacket
16. He's got a rap sheet longer than your arm

Oh if I only had more time this list would go on and on

Hugs and kisses

Stolen from SuperChick (who stole it from Megs)

10 People I'd invite to a dinner party (if I could)

1. Oprah......she would bring the best treats
2. Colin Farrel......eye candy!!
3. David Beckham.....more eye candy!!!!
4. Britney Spears.....I just want to ask her WTF??!!
5. Debbie Travis.....I would love her to give me some decorating ideas
6. Jennifer Aniston.....She just seems like such a nice person
7. Princess Diana.....she just amazes me
8. Rachel Ray.....someones gotta cook for me
9. Katie Holmes.....she just looks like she needs a break from Tom
10. Julia Roberts.....love, love, love her

So there it is....not a very meaningful crowd, but I think it would be fun as hell!!

Hugs and kisses

Decorating breaks applied....

Well any redecorating plans I had are officially on hold. My furnace decided to stop working this morning, and I just got off the phone with the guy (who's at my house with my dear mother) and I'm lookin' at least at $500 for a new motor. Who know's wtf else he's going to find (I'm waiting for that phone call), but my stomach hurts!! Happy Monday, right?

Thanks for all your input for my living room! At least I'm on the same train of thought with all of you. I think I'm gonna go with burgondy...or maybe green, but most likely burgondy. I saw some real pretty velvet burgondy panels at Target yesterday. (the man sent us on his usual shopping excersion while he watched football) (GO BEARS!!!!!) I might just go with them and a pretty valance for above the sliding glass doors and top window.

Ok, I need a new inducer motor & wheel for a grand total of $548.50!! *choke, choke* I would like to publicly thank my mother for sitting in my cold ass house for the last 4 hours waiting for them to come, and for charging the bill for my broke-ass!! Good thing the man is going to give me the money later!! The joys of being a homeowner. F'n furnace!!

Not much else. Very relaxing weekend, and guess what??....IT'S SNOWING!!!!! Very lightly, but fat enough to look perrty. At least that is making me 'crack' a smile. Well gotta run. Jackass boss is here and if he catches me blogging I'll have bigger issues to deal with. Although I don't think getting fired would upset me as much as I think it would.

Hugs and kisses

Come hither!

This is the other man I wish was in my life! David Beckham. Can you say YUMMY??!!! I'm telling you, if Colin Farrell him and I got together I'd have to go to confession....IMMEDIATELY. I read in the news that he's coming to play for a US soccer team, and that means I'll be taking up a new sport to watch! Whew....ok I think I'm done talking about Becks. Is it hot in here?

Anyhoo, I'm feeling a bit better today. Hopefully my body is kicking the hell out of this cold because I'm done being sick already. How's everyone else feeling? I have a feeling I'm on the tail end of this bug from everyone else. Better late then never right? (I'd rather have never with this one)

Not too much else. Swamped at work, so this will have to be short. I'm planning on taking pictures of my living room tonight, so get your decorating caps ready for tomorrow. I think I have a color direction I might go in, but more on that tomorrow.

Hope everyone has a great day!

Hugs and kisses

Hack, hack..sniffle, sniffle..bitch & moan

Ok, so I never ended up taking pictures of my living room because, quite frankly, I feel like shit! I went home last night, fed us, did homework with the little one, put her to bed, and off to bed I went at 8:15!! Everything hurts!! I feel like shit!...oh wait I already said that...sorry.

Jerkmo woke me up around 11-something to see what was wrong and if I was ok. I vagely remember mumbling something (bitchy) about not feeling well and to leave me alone. Poor guy. Apparently when he came home, he says, I was out cold with the puppies sprawled out all over me. Too bad I had no clue; I would've liked to enjoy my puppy snuggles. I felt ok until last night, and then the body aches started. No good, kiddies. Me no likie body aches....they make me very bitchy. At least my nose isn't dripping all over my desk today. What a pain in the butt that was...aside from being totally gross!

The other girl here made it a point to let me know that she had been sneezing and sniffling all last night. Yeah? And? Then she starts saying that I need to disinfect the office because she hasn't been sick in 4 years. (you see what's coming next right?) So, I let her know (in my sick, bitchy way) that just being in this small, stuffy, dumbass office breathing the same f'n air I am is what's getting her sick not me touching something she then touches. Also, for the record, I would just like to add that every single time I sneezed or blew my nose I used hand sanitizer afterwards. SO THERE!!!! Bitch.

So that's my sob story for the day.

Hugs and kisses

Drip, drip, drip

Well kiddies it's official....I have a cold. DAMN!! I was so hoping that it would pass me by, but no such luck. My head feels like it weighs a ton, my nose is raw from all the blowing (I was going to say something perverted but I think I'll refrain), and all I want to do is crawl back in bed and sleep for the rest of the week. I don't necessarly feel all that bad, but I am just so tired it's nuts. I sound way worse than I feel. Needless to say the little one and I won't be going to my parents for dinner. (we usually go there every Tuesday)

So I have a mission for all of you. Tomorrow I'm going to post pictures of my living room, and I need some help picking a color for drapes/curtains. And a style too. I looked online over the weekend, and I found some that I like but I need some feedback. Men are no good at that kinda stuff, so I'm lookin' to my peepes for help. Are you up for the challenge?

Oh another favor too (I know, I'm asking for a lot today aren't I) everyone please cross whatever for me cause I applied for this awesome job, in the lab, at a clinic like 5 minutes from my house. Full benifits (cause I get nodda here) and I'm sure more loot too. Aside from all that the thought of having a job I like again makes me all giddy, and to go back to my passion of medicine is just what I need!!! I know whatever is to be will be, but man I would love to at least get my foot back in the door. I NEED TO GET OUT OF HERE!!!! So here's to hoping for the best. *clink*

Hugs and kisses

Why you gotta be like that?

Here's my thought for today.......Why do people have to be such assholes? If you're having a pissy day why call me and be an ass? Can someone explain that to me?

Ok, I'm at work by myself (the other girl is at a funeral this morning)(yeah, I know how come she gets the ok to go and I got a big fat no?....well her lips are attached to the bosses ass and mine aren't that's why).....anyhoo....so it's been a MADHOUSE....hang on the phone is ringing again....ok, sorry...and everyone I've talked too so far has been a jerk! Whats up with that? This one guys called, asked for the other girl here, and when I told him she wasn't available could I help or take a message and he gets all snotty and says "What's that suppose to mean?!" and without restraint I shot back "Well, that means she's not here, so I can either help you or take a message for her. Your choice." "Oh. ok. I'll leave a message" Goodie for me.....ass.

I just don't understand why people have to be mean and snotty for no other reason than to be an ass. So, for all those who are planning to call me today, and have an attitude be prepared to get it right back because I'm fighting a cold, it's Monday, and I'm not in the mood today.

Hope everyone had a good weekend. I took all my Christmas stuff down, and put my house back together. The little one had a friend sleep over on Saturday, and she had a good time with that. Nodda else. Gotta run before I have to stop one more time to answer the damn phone.

Hugs and kisses

Ramble On

Happy Friday!!

With the exception of me having to work tomorrow I'm glad this week is over. It wasn't bad, but the weekend is always nice. Nothing special planned. I'll be taking down the decorations, and giving the house a good scrubbing. The little one might have one of her friends spend the night tomorrow, but other than that notta on my end.

The weather has sucked big time over here. Nothing but rain, rain, rain. Where is my snow? The only snow we've had so far I was laid up for, and by the time I got moving around it had almost all melted away.....from the rain.....and 40+ degree weather. It makes me so sad that the seasons just don't seem to be the same anymore. Remember when we were kids the seasons were bam bam bam? No confusion, no WTF. Maybe it started snowing sooner than the year before, but damnit when it was winter there was snow on the ground. Constantly. You didn't see grass until spring was on it's way. Now? I don't know what to make of it. I'm not a tree hugger or anything, but something isn't right in the environment and I can't help but think we've messed with it all. Maybe that's why it just didn't feel like Christmas for a lot of us. Tis' the season has turned into Where's the season? Big bummer.

So it's a new year. New choices and changes. Everyone has their lists of change and hopes. I'm determined not to 'settle' this year. It has become so boring for me. I want to be happy about life again. I want to wake up with a smile on my face about more than just 10% of the things in my life. I want to feel like I'm doing more than just going thru the motions. More than just existing. I want more out of life. I don't need it all; just more of it. Whatever 'it' is. I want to find my place in this world and enjoy all it has to offer. Somehow I keep missing it. I can't seem to find my place. I can't seem to get rid of the fear inside of me. Maybe that's why I feel so lost sometimes. How do you make that fear go away?

I know I do feel more positive these days. I'll make a bet it's mainly due to me finally getting my health issues resolved. I didn't realize the major toll it took on me mentally until now. I knew I was really depressed about it all, but I didn't realize just how bad it really was. At least I don't feel like all is hopeless anymore. Life isn't hopeless, and there isn't something/someone out there that just won't let me be. I'm not being punished for something. What a breath of fresh air.

On a better note I want to share with you a joke that almost made me wet my pants:

There were two guys out fishing one day
One guy reaches into his tackle box and pulls out this huge lighter and lights a cigarette
His buddy looks at him and asks him where he got a lighter like that from
"From the genie in my tackle box"
"From the what?"
"From the genie in my tackle box. Go ahead and see for yourself."
So his friend opens the tackle box and out comes a genie
"Your wish is my command"
"Ok, I wish for a million bucks"
"Your wish is granted"
And just like that *POOF* a million ducks appear all around their boat
The guy is all disappointed and turns to his buddy
"I wished for a million bucks not ducks. Whats up with that?"
"Oh. Yeah. I should've warned you the genie is a little hard of hearing. Do you really think I would wish for a 10 inch Bick?"

Get it?? LOL

Hugs and kisses

Stolen from SuperChick

LAYER ONE:
Name: Hyman (aka Jamie)
Birthdate: December 31, 1976
Birthplace: Hinsdale, Il
Current Location: At the Office in GE
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Brown w/'fake' blondish/carmel highlights
Height: 5'6"
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Capercorn

LAYER TWO:
Your heritage: Irish, Scottish, German, English
The shoes you wore today: Black Franco Sorto Clogs
Your weakness: Candy
Your fears: Heights, Water
Your perfect pizza: Mushroom, bacon & Canadian Bacon
Goal you would like to achieve: Stand on my own two feet

LAYER THREE:
Your most overused phrase: WTF
Your first waking thoughts: Damn, I don't want to go to work
Your best physical feature: My Hair
Your most missed memory: being able to come home & only worry about playing with my toys

LAYER FOUR:
Pepsi or Coke: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: Both
Single or group dates: Both
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Neither....YUCK!
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee

LAYER FIVE:
Smoke: Maybe
Cuss: Too Often
Sing: Not when anyone's around
Take a shower everyday: No...everyother
Do you think you have been in love: Definitely
Want to go to college: I want to finish
Want to get married: You mean remarried......yes
Believe in yourself: Not like I should
Get motion sickness: Sometimes
Think you are attractive: Yes
Think you are a health freak: Nope
Get along with your parent(s): Yes, we are great friends
Like thunderstorms: Can't get enough of them
Play an instrument: I use to play the Flute

LAYER SIX: In the past month have you...
Drank alcohol: Yes
Smoked: Yes
Done a drug: Only perscription
Made Out: Yes
Gone on a date: Yes
Gone to the mall?: Yes (Xmas shopping)
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: I wish!
Eaten sushi: PUKE.....No
Been on stage: Nope
Been dumped: Nope
Gone skating: Nope
Made homemade cookies: Yes, chocolate-chip
Gone skinny-dipping: Nope
Dyed your hair: Nope
Stolen anything: Nope

LAYER SEVEN:Have you ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yes, but it didn't go very far
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Yes
Been caught doing something: Like what?
Been called a tease: Yep......more often than not
Gotten beaten up: Nope
Shoplifted: Never
Changed who you were to fit in: Kinda sorta

LAYER EIGHT:
Age you hope to be married: I was 22 the first time around, but maybe after 35 now
Names of Children: Do my dogs count?
Describe your Dream Wedding: On a beach with only a select few
How do you want to die: In my sleep
Sex or Horseback Riding: Sex all the way.....never been horseback riding
What do you want to be when you grow up: A Nurse
What country would you most like to visit: Ireland

LAYER NINE:
Number of drugs taken illegally: Uh.....4?
Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
Number of CDs that I own: A lot
Number of piercings: one is each ear & one in my bellybutton
Number of tattoos: 4
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 5, maybe
Number of scars on my body: 10 and 3 of them I got last month!
Number of things in my past that I regret: I don't know about regret, but I would do a couple things differently if I could

Yeah, baby! I love doing these silly things!

Hugs and kisses

My mentor!

As you can all see my blog is now the prettiest it's ever been! I owe it all to SuperChick!

What would HawkeyeChick and I ever do without her computer expertiese? Well....we'd rot!

That being said I would personally like to send a HUMONGO hug and smooches to SC!

You ROCK, coach!!


Hugs and kisses

Happy New Year!!!!

Da Bears......SUCKED!!! Well the team did anyways.....did anyone watch? How disappointing. We had an AWESOME time though. I'll skip thru the MAJOR fight we had, almost causing us not to go but he got over it, and get to the good stuff. We got there several hours early, parked in the garage right next to the stadium in the first spot off the elevator, walked upstairs, and found that our entrance was right there....SWEET!! One of his friends was tailgating in the South parking lot WAAAAY over there, so we walked 25 minutes to where they were. Now, I've never been to a football game. Never. Not even in high school, so this was all new to me. He was so excited. It was actually pretty cute. He kept telling me about all the things I would find cool, and all the things that made seeing it in person way better than on tv. Just all about how I was going to love it! Truth be told...I was really excited too.

Tailgaters......wow! It was the funnest scene I've been around in so long. Everyone was WAY trashed, loud, rowdy, pumped, etc when we rolled in. Tons of music, booze, food, grillin', dancing....it just goes on and on. Some guy zipped by on a motorized cooler. It was way cool. Let's just say by the time we all walked back to the game I had to hold onto him just to make sure I made it back. Damn. Anyone remember that feeling where you're just standing around and all of a sudden you say to yourself "Damn, I'm f'd up. Oh sh*t!" Yup, that was me, looking up at the Chicago skyline around 5 pm on Sunday. That's when it really felt like my birthday. They didn't let this birthday girl catch a break, and I didn't put up a fight either. It was a blast!!

Walking back everyone was yelling, chanting, booing all the Packers fans we passed. I just held onto jerkmo and laughed....and laughed....and laughed. Then he would start laughing at me laughing, and I'm sure you can figure the rest of that one out. Needless to say we had to run to catch up a couple of times. Did I mention how much fun it was? We said our goodbyes to the rest of the group at the gates, and off we went to our premo seats. SWEET!! You remember the ONE GOAL they scored? We were 24 rows up from that end-zone. Awesome seats. Great pictures. (even though they're at home...sorry) At one point I leaned over and asked him why they're not down by our end more, and he plainly commented "Cause the Bears suck today, babe." Really? No! I thought they wanted a spanking for some kinky reason. lol. He knew I was kidding.

After the last turnover, halfway thru the 4th quarter, we left. Why stay? I don't know why he even bothered to throw the ball to the other team when he could've just handed it to them....dumbass. Besides it was starting to get really windy, the team was getting spanked, and we still had to get out of the city.....on New Years Eve. Yeah. We made it back to our car and home in 40 minutes! Niiiiice!! No traffic or nothin'.

The baby came home yesterday, and now my new year is complete. AND to top it all off jerkmo did something he rarely ever does.....he apologized for how he was towards me. Excuse me? Baking powder? I was speachless. It was one of those kinds fights that starts with one thing and then everything that has ever bothered you comes out......EVERYTHING. Whew! I got a lot off my chest. Things I thought I would NEVER tell him just came flying out......all of it. Before I could even stop it. It felt good. It was something I should've done a long time ago. I still can't say that I believe that there wasn't someone else, but he did seem pretty damn sincere in the fact that I'm all he has ever wanted, and that he may have done some pretty shitty things, but he would never do that to me. He even said he was thinking about going to see someone about his issues. He just needs to control his temper better; his fuse is about 'this' big. Whatever. Wheither it be for me, him, us or the next girl he does need help with some things and I'm just glad he finally admitted it. Where that leaves us I'm still not sure. I've kinda got us on cruse control for now.

All in all it was a blast of a weekend. We went to our neighbors house on Saturday and played cards (and drank) until almost midnight. Then Sunday's festivities. It was, overall, the best birthday I've had in a LONG time!

Happy New Year everyone!!!! Hugs and Kisses

P.s. 30 isn't so bad afterall!